Hihi~~!!
since friday until now, i dun ve a breaktime. D:
friday i went to school for practice then after that was having open house NIGHT duty!
amazing, me and yumin clinque very well. we took a tour for like 3 hours.
until we are very sian, but they seems to be happy and entertained! :D

then next was sat, busy day!!! D:
morning got practice at 9.30. i oly slp like 4 hours, from 4am to 8am leh.
then after that practice from 9.30 to 3.30.
tuition from 4.30pm to 6.30pm.
then go TGCO from 7.30pm to 10pm.
hahax. whole day was booked with a lot of things! D:
but it was nice with so many friends around me. :D
but was having a bad stomachache + diarrhoe like almost the whole day! D:


lucky i got friends ard me.
if not i think i will be thinking of alot of things D:

HiHi,
today was a great day, i am so happy. :D
firstly in the morning i remember when i woke up, HH sms me, i saw le was shocked! :P
then i call her, then i know that i acty was late for project 1 discussion!
i forgot that they say 10am meet, but i thought is 12pm all along, :P
then when i reach sch, they say becuz i forgot, so they call me to do the commercial D:
then was trying to find a room to do the commercial until i need to go CO! :P

i managed to run away then :P hahax.
then meet suying outside CO room. then went to CO room, to practice a little. :D
my phone was acty flooded with pple coming to NYP!. hahax.
i think with ziyue, jiaee, sharifah and linda. i saw, wow, so many sms! :P
then after that i saw ziyue they all and sharifah and his FRIEND! juz before performance.
was so happy. :D hahax. but the performance for my part, was not that good.
hmm, 2 days of practice is not enough for 4 songs is not okay with me.
worst thing is the mic is infront of me somemore, scary!
sharifah say my face acty turn blur blur like that. :P hahax
i think so too. then i wanted to turn it away, but huiming say cannot! D:

hahax, then once i return to the CO room, i receive a call about project.
then i juz went to meet the project 1 group again and discuss with them :D
then went home together with them with 2 piekia, cuz i am too hungry! :P
hahax, thats it, come home and talk to a lot of pple in msn!!!
until now, i am finally free from msn! :P.
i wan to finish my homework fast! but got no mood to do.



my mood this feel days are not very good when i am alone
i dunno wad to expect from someone, maybe i shouldnt expect so much
so that i wouldnt lead myself to think so much and be so miserable
think positively yah :D

Hihi, i am here to blog again, i should just blog about my daily life :P
today wake up very early, but saw no one at home. so sian..
then on comp and i went to talk to sharifah and came to know that viny's coming back soon.
then cooked a plate of fried rice for lunch myself and practice ZR after that :D

After that i went to NYPCO for practice
learn a total of 4 new songs in one day! very very scary!
like sight read the scores, and all the songs de parts are quite fast.
but overall, its still manageable, juz need to practice tmr then shld be fine le :D
and i promised to help out in NYPCO percussion ensemble, so will get busy soon! D:
then i think i will be helping PCO for performance on 15th jan too, one day before my bdae :D
then after that should be dun ve anything le. :P
i will end my conver here. :P i dunno wad to say, very tired :S

LOL. today was a wonderful day!
i bought my new ZR, which cost me $650 (usual price $950)
was super happy with my new ZR, i should take a photo to put it here real soon.
Thanks randal and yz for accompanying me to buy that ruan.
then after that we went to RP and i help them in their small performance.
was very happy, cuz i was surprised when i am on staged, so shock! :D

but over all it was nice, then i get to know people like cassandra, yiheng and joel!
new friends! they are nice people yah :D
then ended up taking a cab home with randal, yz and HH.
cuz my qin too heavy bah, acty i also very lazy and yz rushing back to camp :D
thats all for today! i went home, bath and going to slp soon :D
i will end my post here :D

Its been so long since i last posted things on this blog! :P
i shall start posting since this is a new year a new start to everything!
i should forget the past, forget the things that happened in 2010, leave everything behind, but memories that are meant to be forgotten.
so many things have happened, i have lost so much friends, everytime i did something last time, there will be friends around that are helping me when i need. but now, i oly have some close friends of mine.

In this new year! i have some wishes. simple ones.
-to be happy every day! :D
-to lead a simple life with friends around! :D
-do well in my studies and worked hard! :D
-practice ZR!!! :D (cuz i suddenly used ZR as my support)
-and a lot MORE! but i dunno wad i wan! :D

what i wan this year! :D
-a new ZR! :D
-an itouch! :D

Hi, every one, lol. sounds so strange.
So long never blog le. for me, life is still quite fun bah, every day still laugh and laugh and laugh. something may have happened btw me and friends, maybe i am not able to handle things real well. then yah, but i hope that i can return to the peijun last time, and i am trying very hard myself le. hope that everyone understand and know that i am doing so. :D

so long never go out and shop with friends le. felt so sian sometimes. anw, i say finish le, shld be exam period. tmr last paper, muz chiong and study. :D jiayous! :D

Hi peeps, very long never update my blog le, i have been busy working since 4th jan until now, thats why i didnt really bother to update the blog too. :D

Anw, i will juz update the things that happen on 16th jan here. hahax. lol, cuz i somehow forgot wad has happen before 16th jan, maybe i have been having boring days working.

Yah, on 16th jan, i wake up damn early when i only manage to get a six hour slp that night. Then i met ngai han and walked to CCHY together, cuz they are having CCA carnival that day, i have brought a small bag out with me when i go out, but i stuff alot of stuffs inside the bag. When we reach school, i damn happy, hahax. cuz they playing long teng, then i took out my sticks and start to play with them since i got nothing to do... hahax.

Then after that they finish practicing, and thanks cchyco, they acty sang bdae song for both me and huilin! Thanks so much! :D Then we move the instruments up to the MPH and Ziyue the dear SL and percussion peeps looks organise sia, they load and arrange the instruments properly, got a place to walk, Ziyue got improve alot! :D Then after that me and ngai han went to the audience seat to watch the performance, then we watch until CO perform finish, we quickly rush go down to take our bags, cuz we are meeting the CCHY group now.

Which consist of Sha, Au, Ngai han and Sally. Then Zk lend us his laptop and we head down to Safra together to watch Video that Sha has made for us, but too bad, Sally the video cant work in Zk laptop. But nvm, we will always have chance to watch again! :D Anw, Sha video very touching! I was very touch by wad Viny's wrote for me too, i think we have all grow up as the year pass, i am sad that it end, but i know life must carry on and we will have challenges ahead that we meet, although we wun have the same friends beside us, but having friends that are beside us once and share all the ups and down tgt is enough, i will rmb them always!. :D

Then we went bowling, lol, they all first time go bowling, so funny, i cant stop laughing at them bowling, but nvm, they all manage to score more than 30, not bad for first timer, cuz i got see worst score before. But nvm, then we proceed to playing pool, my second time playing that, not bad, i enjoy it too. :D But after that i need to leave le, cuz i going to meet Zk and pass him back the laptop and head down to NP to find Eileen, when i am surprise...

Haha, they plan everything without me knowing larx, Eileen just bluff me that she wan to eat lunch with me and it will be at NP, then hor Zk and me walk to NP lor, but she say she will be late mah, so i wait for her. Then walk here walk there like mad pple, doing nothing.. Then after that meet Eileen at G2000 there and she call me to think where i wan to go, then after that she very funny, brought me go Swensens! hahax.LOL, acty very obvious le, but i dunno why i didnt think of it, then i found out that there are alot of pple there, i think Yurou Hoyin Jiaqing Yanxu Juanning Jiaee Ziyue Jiamin Jamie and Zijian, then after that got me Eileen and Zhengkang.

Lol, very surprise larx, so they have all come tgt and celebrate for me. :D So happy to see them all there, then we ate Swensens de food, then after we eat finish, i get the free ice cream from them and eat a little, cuz they got some free things for bdae person. Then after that thanks to cchyco pple again, they give me a cake, bought in Swensens, ice cream cake somemore and sing me Bdae Song, thanks so much! :D After that they give me presents and thanks all of them for coming down to celebrate it for me, love all of u! :D

After that we went down BL to help them perform, with Ziyue, Jiaee, Eileen, Zhengkang, Zijian, Jiaqing and Juanning. Then meet Nette, Linda, Elain and Eugene there, sorry for being late again, this time is my fault, hahax. Then after that we take all the instruments to the Boon Lay Shopping Centre, its very little, HAHA! Then we wait on the stage, but Jiaee was very funny larx, she keep saying and telling Ziyue that alot of she bei bei looking at Ziyue. hahax. Yah, then after that the performance finish, although quite warm and tired, but still not bad larx.

After that went back to BLCC, then thanks so much to BLCC member, they sang bdae song for me too, although i know them and see them less than 5 times. :D hahx. then after that we took taxi and head down to TGCC! hahax. lol, i did something very very hahahahahax in the taxi, okay nvm, its alright, its over!!! :D

Then after that went to TGCC, we act that we are hurrying and quickly go to TGCC and take out instru and practice! hahax, not bad, the practice quite fun. :D Then after that they ask me to go and drink tea, hahax, lol, acty i somehow know wad is going to happen! :D

Thanks TGCCCO peeps! enjoy that last few hours that i have that day, thanks for the cake, the bdae song and u all the music for 5 years! :D Anw, i will like to thanks everyone that i saw that day that know me! hahax. lol. thanks for everything that u all did, i know that there are always friend beside me when i need u all! Thank you so much:D

Hi peeps, i think i shldnt put my blog on my msn PM le, since i am not updating anything touching or wad, i find that the days of 2010 pass very fast. Now is the 5 of Jan le, soon it will be 12 Jan, and my results are going to be out soon. Currently working as a telemarketer. So happy when i know that i am earning money everyday when i go to work, and i enjoy the work, cuz i always laugh at myself when i make mistakes. hahax

Now every morning have to wake up at around 8am and travel down to tanjong pagar with zhengkang to work, then have lunch with him and come home with him. I met jiaqing, Jiaee and gang today for breakfast, hahax. LOL. It looks so abnormal, school reopen and i am going to work when they are going to school, somehow started to miss school life a little....

Currently work for 2 days, enjoy it, always go for cheap lunch and save as much as i can, but always ended up buying some snacks to eat along the way back, cuz we suppose to have an hour lunch, me and zhengkang always end up eating for just 15 mins and end up going back to office super early, when some of them have juz left for lunch. Yah, i enjoy calling pple bah, especially when pple return u with a thank you and bye, but sometimes, i scared i call too many time, the person fed up. hahax. but its okay, they wun know me when am out in the street too. hahax

Sorry, i will stop here, i will type again next time. hahax

31st December 2009!
Happy Birthday to Ziyue!
We went out celebrating ziyue birthday with her, with Hoyin, Kingchi, Zhengkang, Zijian, Qimian, Me, Jiaqing, Jamie, Tan Jiamin, Jasmine Khoo, Jiaee, Yurou, Ziyue.
We went to Popeye and had our lunch and tried to find arcade to play and thinking of watching movie before we finally decided to go play POOL, suggested by mian-er..
My first time play Pool leh, so nice and happy to do that, hahax. cuz i am 16 and above le. hahax. But yah, i hope to play it again, but it seems expensive to play it too. hahax
Then after that we went to the central stage at Amk Central to celebrate and sing bdae song and take photo for Ziyue's Birthday.
After that we find that we are very late for the performance, so sorry to BLCCCO pple, for being late that day, acty, we should be pple who are punctual, not good for pple first impression when one is late for such event. Then we started practising all the songs with them and after had dinner together and talk together for a while.
Then we carry the instrus to the performing place, the drumset damn heavy sia!! But the glock very light, i can swing it up and down like a toy. hahax. Then yah, we manage to bring the drumset there, jiaqing and hoyin carry alot.. hahax.
Then we perform, the ZR uncle very nice, hahax, he is such a nice guy, he is pro too, i shld learn from him sia!! hahax. Then when we on stage, he call me to go keshu and get to know the uncle name when we are on stage going to perform. hahax. Quite funny, cuz we didnt know each other name during practice, but when we are on stage. Then after that okay larx, the performance not bad, i use to small and big performance, so i was very very very relax.
Then after the performance, we take everything back, jiaqing take it to the stair and zijian take the drumset up 3 floor. hahax. super pro, now i find that i dun ve strength, cuz they are more kong bu then me. hahax.
Then we stay in the CO room and play before we went down to katib to meet others for countdown and zijian when for chalet. After that we reach katib, meet with pple and i sign up for passion card. hahax.
Then after that they wan go toilet, all the toilet very dirty and full, then they went my hse the toilet. hahax. Then they went my house, after that we meet all the seniors at the NTUC there and went to my block there and sit again, cuz the countdown area very crowded. Was very happy, spending time with people around me.
But, i acty spend my last minute of 2009 at home, cuz zhengkang need the toilet urgently. Then i brought him home, and i spent the last minute with my parents! hahax. Not bad larx. :D

1st Jan 2010
Then after that we met again and go playground play and take photo with each other! hahax.
After that went supper with them and after that got home and take a shower and slp.. hahax..
The next day, work up quite early, excited to go out and celebrate nette, jamie and linda bdae. Gene very nice, wake up early and make cheesecake for them, although it kinda look unsuccessful, then we went to hotpot culture and had buffet and enjoy it larx. Then we went to watch alvin and the chipmunks and went home, knowing that i dun dinner, then i go and buy my dinner, until now still super full, got phobia for meet and vege and food. hahax. cuz eat too much le. HAHAX. Thats the end of my day! hahax. tomorrow will be better! :D

I dont know wad i thinking nowadays.
Can just get mad over small things.
But yah, i know i am fine, and i will be fine. :D
Once i go to work, maybe i forget everything.
Time is getting busier. But i am happy when you are there. :D

I got so many feelings, i find that i didnt thank alot of people in detail like ziyue, I was so so SO TOUCHED by Ziyue's post. Its seems that her post is funny at first, cuz she make quite alot of mistakes when she type it, like she wear same size as qimian and wad YIM HOK MAN, then alot of things, but the after I LOVE PERCUSSION! It just struck me time and again, i tried to forget abit, like how we have the time during concert days when we are practicing hard everyday, everyday trying to get the long teng group and gushi group tgt and practice.

It is so difficult to get everyone tgt to really pracitce the song together, cuz we have great and busy seniors, they are studying when we have holidays, but thx for all their help everytime they came down, they came after school, after exam, after camp, after any busy schedule that they have to practice with us, teach us new things and help us along when we need help.

I think this post is especially for Percussion people leh, be it senior or junior of cchyco percussion!!! Like ziyue say, she cant forget both 20th April and 20th December, i cant forget too! From the beginning of the year, from the time i heard SBYG and thinking of changing it from JJL to SBYG, i cant forget until now. When i spent time practising JJL like mad and after that changing to SBYG, i am suppose to play PG until i am playing DTG.

From the time when the seniors came down, from zijian then kingchi, when they are having schools and busy with their own things from the start of the year, every actions that zijian choreograph and start teaching us the action, after teaching us to make sure everyone correct, both cha and gu, we spent time practice it again and again tgt. Listen to it, play so many times until i think we are dreaming also will dream of the tune.

Its just so right, i think join CO is not a matter of playing music, playing music is not important, it is my interest and passion, but i think is the pple u play it with, the time u spend tgt understanding each other, No matter how nice ur music is, there is no teamwork no understanding and connection between each other, having confidence in the pple u are playing with, its not music, it will juz purely your own music that no one understand.

PSPS, let me paste something that ziyue talk about me here, leave it for memory too.
I would like to thank peijun the most, I thank her for believing in me, I thank her for standing beside me during the most difficult times, I thank her for helping me solve a lot of problems, and I thank her for her guidance.
Honestly speaking I would never have thought I would become the SL but peijun chose me and she believed that I can do it.
She taught me everything, and even though sometimes I have thoughts of giving up she still believes in me.
Even though sometimes I slack she still believes in me and scold me and tell me what's the right thing to do.
For the past 2 years, peijun has been a mother-like figure to me, and percussion. :)
She's incredibly nice but she is firm! She won't change her mind so you diedie must listen to her!
She's cute and she's unbelievably enthu which influence me to get high everytime I talk to her LOL.
I love her very much. :D
I've realised that I'm very dependent on her and everytime something went wrong I'll most probably go: "peijun!"
And next year she won't be there for me. ): ): ):
I would have nobody to rely on myself but I believe I can do it. :)
Because I still have dear percussion :D


Now i am so touched, the same feeling of 20th december juz come back. I didnt know that i am firm acty, but maybe i am, diedie must listen to me de! hahax. I am fierce sometimes, to them, maybe most of the times when i see them slacking, but yah, thx ziyue for this post, she will be my best partner for percussion now, i can really cooperate with her well, i hope that i can play gushi with her AGAIN! She is hardworking, i am sorry if i am really firm on the things that i have decided, and i myself is not a good leader too, but i hope that u rmb everything that i have said to u, cuz i am not going to be with u anymore, i believe in you!, so show me that i believe the right person. :D Although its oly like 1 month when we learn gushi, not everyone present everytime, but yah, it really touch me.

Thx to all percussion junior and brevian too, You all make my year, an interesting year and the year that i enjoy the most, since we started practising for SYF, although i maybe fierce and demanding, alawys call u all come down for practice and alot of stuff, but it is all for you own good! :D I always thought that after 20th April, i wun meet u all again and practice together with u all again, then maybe we will never have a chance to drum tgt again, but this concert make us do that once more, and i think it will be the last le, or maybe not, it depends. But it is really difficult to forget, i really love all of you very much! Nothing can compare to me going down to practice and things larx, if u all call me to have a concert again, i will go join in too, no matter how busy i am. But wad pass has already pass, we cant go back to the past, but we can oly look forward to the future, i wan to see great percussionist appearing in cchyco again, make the new batch a nice one and i will be back to see what percussion has become and it wil be my turn to look at u all instead of performing with u all, so jiayous!!

Now the seniors, senior can say one by one, cuz got 3 oly! hahax.
Kingchi: Really thx for coming down instead of ur busy schedule and exam before the concert, it seems like u are the busiest when we are near the concert date, but u are the most enthu senior that i have, ur encouragement at the backstage really give me confidence, u will say my good junior, amazing junior, tapping my head (dun anyhow think) make me laugh and smile when you know i am feeling down, you know what i am thinking, the stress that i have handling with pple around me, i dunwan anyone to be seperated, once say that we have concert and gushi, we have to go on, continue and work hard! Thanks, i will rmb that, the confidence thats in me that i need and the encouraging words that u say to me. Thanks for ur time coming down to teach us things and i learn alot from you too, not in terms of skills, in terms of how to be a good person and a leader.

Next.
Zijian: Thanks again, for the time, although i am quite mad at you at some point of time because you think differently from me, but anw, its over the concert is over and everything is over. Thanks for the action for SBYG, really enjoy playing it although we played alot of times, you also came down every time we need help when you have school and things, although u may sound like you are lazy sometimes, but i know you are not, u are a helpful person instead. All the things we need, the instrus that u help us to borrow and the instrus that u lend us, you find ways and time to help us find it and teach us how to play it well. You seems that u dun care sometimes, like some words that you said, but acty u care and u will try ways to help us in anyway. Always coming to percussion rescue, like the concert day when the 2nd lorry arrive. Bringing so many things to lend us during the concert day although u look like some terrorist when u come and go home. hahax. But yah, thanks for everything that you do, thanks for ur guidance after i become the SL too, be it with instrus or handling of instrus, skills and all soughts of percussion stuff, until now, i appreciate it, and i not scolding senior, i am just saying!! hahax. Thanks for your time too, hope to play gushi again with all of you.

Next.
Qimian: Thanks too, although i didnt get to know you very well, but you are a nice senior, a nice person to talk to, whenever call you to come down and practice, although you are busy, but you will throw something aside and come down to practice with us, whenever i cant settle some of them, u will teach me how to do it and give me suggestion, u see us in need of help, u will come and help us. Thanks for your time too, i always thought that you are a slack senior, u wun even come back to help, but you did! You make me change a perspective of you! Thanks for your time too, i appreciate too!

Lastly i have to thank all the percussion peeps again who make my year a wonderful and meaningful one, if you all realise, we really spend our time tgt with cchyco and percussion for the whole of this year, although its tiring and busy sometimes, but its all worth it!
Thanks!

started to miss cchyco again, too free this week, nothing occupies me, i dun like to be like that... so sian and bored everyday, staying at home and does nothing except for using the comp. But i did do something since friday until now. Lets start from friday bah.

Hahax, i went marina barage in the afternn, i think i wun wan go there again if i bring nothing except for myself there, cuz it is a boring place and all the things there sell very expensive and acty they didnt sell alot of things there, is like a shop that sell things oly, and some restaurant. I find it very ulu, but the wind very nice, when we go up there, the win very nice and see people fly kite, got the feel of flying too, but maybe next time, we shld bring our own kite there to fly! hahax. Then bring mat and sit down on it.

I went with Eileen, Hoyin and Zhengkang. Cuz we are like free on xmas day and nothing to do, so we went there and see see. After that went to hoyin's house to have dinner after we go northpoint buy the dinner and some bread for myself. After that i went home and had dinner at home and zhengkang and eileen came my house, cuz they dunno where to go, they come my house and play with my instrus and use my comp. hahax. But very fun, got friends beside me.

Then on Sat, acty i did nothing, i stay and rot at home from morning until afternn, went to buy some pants and jeans with my mum, cuz going to work! hahax. Then after that i continue to rot at home, until around 3+pm, i went to TGCCCO and practice with them for the performance at night. The performance was not bad, although i didnt really practice with them larx, but thx for thier understanding, i am kinda busy for the pass few weeks.

We have our dinner and performance end le, we stay and take some photos together! hahax. Then after that some of them went to drink tea, but thinking that i have to wake up early to go down lakeside, so i went home with eileen.

On Sunday, i met eileen and jiaqing at Admiralty station, we went down to boon lay together. Then meet gene there and we go boon lay CC. Their practice was fun, cuz they got a cute conductor! hahax. I enjoy it, although the songs not difficult but okay larx, my standard also not very high! As long as i can continue to play CO and i didnt stop can le. Cuz i love CO! :D

Then after that we rush down to City Hall, went to watch Beautiful Sunday by PAYCO! Not bad, we manage to get our sits and we meet zijian, zhengkang and hoyin there and we watch tgt, but jiaqing didnt go, cuz he went home and slp. Then after that the concert end le we went to eat at carls' junior, my firz time eating there, the burger is so big, free flow of drinks and things, the fries also nice. I eat until i super full. hahax

Then after that we head down to City Hall Mrt, meet jiaqing and went to Tanjong Pagar, to watch junsian concert, AND jiaqing HELP ZIYUE buy FLOWER for JUNSIAN!!!! Hahax. so nice to ziyue to wan to buy flower for junsian... hahax, we didnt wanna buy too, but she force us buy de.. hahax. Then we go watch BHCO de concert, was not bad, but alot of singing larx, not purely CO de, but okay, the singer not bad, although i am more interested if it is CO, but the singer got high pitch and it sound soothing, not that type of NOISE but high pitch de.

Then after that find that alot of pple from CCHYCO also did go and watch too. Then we present the flower to junsian in the name of ziyue! hahax. Then went to lau pa sat and eat, but eileen and gene need work, so they went home firz. I went with cchyco peeps and took the last train back home and reach home quite late, but i think my mum used to it, so she didnt scold and she call me to eat outside myself, cuz she dun ve dinner for me, i mean SUPPER! hahax.

Then today, a sian day again, cuz i didnt do anything again, but nvm larx, soon, i wun have sianx day i hope, cuz i busy from tmr till sat le. Then mon going to work. hahax but i enjoy my day everyday, smiling on everything... :)

Sometimes i doesnt mean to hurt anyone
But i dunno how to express myself, so i hurt them.
I dun wan to be like that, just hope that we can be both understanding.
I am sorry sometimes, but forgive me.
Because i am who i am, i didnt try to change anyone, so dun change me.
Everyone is unique.

Today had a wonderful day, i met ngai han in the morning and went to CCHY, cuz she wanna put her ZR back to CO room and i wanna find the score and shuangjimu back to zijian, hahax. We met early and decided to go tgt! hahax.

After that ngai han pei me go northpoint and i meet Jamie and Ziyue there! We bought the stuff for the making the card and they bought jiaee elephant! hahax. then after that we when to meet jiaee and we decided to go eat subway, but subway got so limited seats, so we ended up go 18cow eat again. hahax

Then after that we went 18cow eat and they make hoyin card and give jiaee her present! hahax. Then we spray whip cream at jiaee! hahax. lol, poor her, she go wash her hair after that! hahax. Then after that we meeting hoyin at safra, so they went to safra then me zijian and jiaqing when to buy cake, thanks zijian for paying for the cake and the 2 chocolate mouse!, but its only "$4"! HAHAHAX!!!

After that jiaqing went for tuition and we send the cake to safra and take it in to celebrate! hahax. Then we finish the cake and go bowling! hahax. Thinking of play pool! but only left billard table! so sad, i didnt try before, i want to try one day! I think now school holidays, still will have alot of pple going down to play.

Nvm we will play next time. Then after that we went arcade play and the small ones when back in hurry, cuz they scared parents scold, but we enjoy ourselves, except for jiaee, she keep stomachache, then me hoyin and zijian ended up waiting for her and i send her home in a taxi, hope that she go and see a doctor real soon and recover real fast! take cares! :D

Then after that we went home le. hahax. But zijian go and buy 2 more chocolate mouse, i still think that the chocolate mouse very cute and funny! hahax. next time i shld buy too! haha. CHOCOLATE MOUSE! hahax.

Belows are some photos that we took in safra! :D

I shall continue blogging about what happen after the concert, and i forget to thank quite a number of people for their help and support.

To TGCCCO, thx for all ur support and waiting for me for so long sia, i thought u all will wanna go home but u all still stay and wait until i am out and take photo with me before going home, thx so much for coming down, i think i did let u all see a good show! A different PeiJun in tgccco and during the concert! hahax.

To Percussion Juniors and Seniors again, i muz thank you all for helping me find my clothes hahax, i thought i lost it, although i look calm, acty i very worried, if i lose it right, i wun have clothes to wear le, D:! hahax. But thanks for helping me find it! :D Thanks for making my year 2009 so meaningful too, from SYF, to Anniversary to Concert, all the camp and percussion outing that we have tgt, all the time that we spent tgt, practising, eating and talking, really appreciate it! thanks!

Yah, now i want to say after the concert! hahax. lol, continue writing my story! hahax.
Yah, when we finish, we acty self enthu on stage and get scolded by the management there, cuz we like wasting their time and giving them OT! hahax. lol, but who cares, as long as we enjoy it, but very bad larx. Then we quickly take all the instrus down to the back and wait for the lorry to come lor, bu the lorry very late, after that we went to the vending machine there and take GS photos and i took photos with TGCC people too! thanks again for coming down to support me! hahax.

Then after that we continue to take photo at the entrance of SCH, cuz waiting for the bus to arrive, will upload it soon to facebook, when i get it, hahax. Then after that the bus arrive and we board the bus, then zijian trying to teach me how to play shou gu, but i think i really tired, i wan to learn, but i cant play it well bah, tired le. Then KC super enthu in the bus, hahax, making us laugh like mad! hahax.

Then we laugh and joke and talk and noisy all the way until we reach CCHY! :D After that we cnfirm unload the instrus, then we put in D&T, cuz everyone tired le larx, shld juz put at D&T! hahax. Then Mdm Teo so nice, she acty go and buy chicken wings for us to eat, cuz she scared we all hungry, thx to her, cuz i am really hungry, the chicken wings help to fill my stomach a little, than after that thx to Mr Chang again for treating us Mac, i think cost super alot! Cuz he bought so much! So nice of him, cuz we really hungry and no food in the middle of the night! Then when he went to buy it, i went to bath, cuz i was preparing to slp ASAP, i got interview in the morning at 10am.

Yah, then i went to interview and go back to meet them, cuz they juz started eating when i reach katib, then went to 630 and eat with them, then after that i went for camp again! hahax. I tried to slp in the CO room, super cold and i get oly like 3 hours slp that night, cuz there is a group of noisy people and my senior quite noisy also, then we ended up playing GS before we really went to slp and keep quiet! hahax. Maybe my last camp in CCHY, shldnt even slp, shld juz play till morning! hahax. lol.

Then i wake up at 8am and leave at 8.40am, when i went back in the afternn, all the instrus are in the CO room le, HAHAX. So i dunnit to carry any! hahax. Then after that we go slp, the aircon too cold le, no matter how i try to slp, i cant, so sianx.. hahax. Then we went home at around 6+pm, hahax. This is how the whole day ends and how everything ends after the concert, have a happy time with my senior! hahax.Thanks for everything again! :D

Some photos that we have taken!

The GuShi Group!

My first and most memorable concert in my life now
1.20th April
2.20th November
3.20th December.
All the 20s, so nice, is just a day of success for cchyco when everything fall on that day.

I dunno where to start the blog sia.. i think shld start from the morning, i will only talk about sunday bah, which is 20th december. I reach school at 9am, then find that the gate not open, so sad. hahax. Then i waited with ziyue, as usual i am one of the EARLIEST to reach!!!! Then after that we went into the school, its my first time being the first person to enter the school! Then after that follow by Mian-er, then a black person came in and his face look black and everything around him looks black! hahax. Follow by KC, thx for the breakfast, cuz after i take out the instru to the foyer, i felt hungry!

After that we practice GS, wah last practice sia, i think we got less than 10 practice for GS, since 1 month ago, when i just finish my O level, was very surprise that Seniors are coming back to help and we are playing this percussion ensemble piece. We was practising at the foyer and i think it attracted alot of attention from the public, but nvm, i like the sound there, very nice, the PG sound very nice when hit. hahax. But nvm, it will not be our practising area larx. Was impressed by my junior, ziyue, although we are all her senior, but she still daring enough to take up the challenge and work hard with us for gushi, kudos to her, i think she will have great future in percussion! jiayous!

After that we change our song, to LT! hahax. Then now is my turn to cooperate with jamie le, hahax. so sorry, i only learn LT and cooperate with her for a few practice oly, but we cooperate very well, i think i will miss all my sec 2s junior, cuz they play with me like my partner for the songs, not that i wun miss sec 3s de, i will miss them too! But we wouldnt have chance to cooperate anymore bah! D: LT was nice, we play at the foyer, i like the sound there, we play until the lorry came and we are gg to load the instru up the lorry.

Until now i still very fed up with the lorry person, disgusting, idiotic person and a person who still support him, i dun think i shall say the name, not nice. Although i am like inexperienced, okay, i think i am really lost for direction that day, so sorry, but i dun like anyone to crap around me when they dunno anything and act like they know and very pro at it, if they are pro enough, then next time dunnit us le, juz go and do it himself or herself. Okay, i better drop this subject, i nit to thank ZJ, KC and QM for helping when the 2nd lorry came, sorry, this junior of u all, which is me, very incapable that day.

Then we bought the bus to SCH, so nervous, when reach there i got the feel that its SYF again, my second time of the year playing music there, was damn happy and i feel the stress the minute i enter the place. Then we went to help unload the instru and bring up to the hall, then yah, when we reach the whole orchestra there le, only left percussion haven put okay. But nvm, i think we are quite fast, cuz the first 2 songs need small instrus oly.

Then our rehersal started, i think everything went well, although i dun ve the time to look and hear at how the others play, but i think the only problem was that we dun ve stage crew, so we have to take and arrange our own instruments ourselves, even laoda also offer his help, was so touch by him mann, he really help us on the stage, is not their job, but they are kind enough to help as instructor! I think only GS went abit wrong, i was quite cock up and the PG i turn wrong way, then i try to turn it back on stage.

After the rehersal, hahax. The time has come, i was like extremely nervous that time, i dun even feel like going to eat anything larx. But was damn touch by some scenes that i saw when i am trying to find my dinner, i will never forget it, thanks Zijian, Qimian, Kingchi, Laoda and Shimu, i felt very embarassed, but was really touch by what they did for me, thx for the food and drinks. I will remember it.

Finally, the time has come, shld i elaborate songs by songs that i have played? I think i should to let pple know. First 2 songs, YZWQ and JJL, hahahax, i heard pple say that we are not powerful enough, i think is me bah, i shld have hit louder for the dagu, but nvm, its over. YZWQ was okay bah, i didnt heard any comments by anyone.

Next is liang xiao and yan huang feng qin, i think both song also nice, cuz i heard from the backstage, although yan huang feng qin was kind of soft, but overall, i think it is well played. Zhao also got perform with them, i think he will look cute in the video! hahax. He should wear Sunglasses! He will looks damn cool!

After that was ye shen chen follow by LONGTENG! ye shen chen was very good, but i was trembling when hearing it at the backstage, cuz coming up will be long teng, argh, next long teng hu yue, wah, damn sianx diao, i am so stupid, my firz concert, as a lead, i am damn disappointed at myself, i think my mind went blank and totally forget wad i shld play at that time, i dunno wad courage call me to continue and play, but nvm, at least i continue and didnt stuck there. Sorry for the crop up to all woodwind pple and my dear percussion friends! U all did a good job, i think you all cooperate with me last monday only and you all manage to look at my action and thanks so much, although i may not know some of you all real well, but thanks, i may not be a good player, but you all still look at me and make me guide all of you for long teng, really thank you! Percussion too, sorry, this senior of you all didnt do her best that day for the front part, but thanks percussion, you all play 100 times in school, but 2 times at SCH, proud of yourself and dun think so much le for some of you all! This is my first time on PG leh, and the song is long teng and really thank you all of you again! :D

Next interval, me and ziyue, CHIONG AR! We go change clothes, then suddenly find that acty we dun nit to gan chiong, hahax. nvm larx. really, NERVOUS, my firz time, after long teng experience i try to forget it and play the others well. Next coming up for us is xi xiang feng, hahax. jiaqing and junxiong trying to act funny, hahax. not bad, i heard from the backstage, very nice, they did a good job, and they are not out of breathe!

Next coming up, the second song that send my heart pumping, we take around 1 month to learn and practice, there is less than 10 practice together, less than 5 practice having alll the 5 of us together, but we make it, one of the best time, which is on SCH concert hall, GuShi, One of the best that we have played, with all the actions and dynamics, i am so proud of both seniors and juniors again, we cooperate well, although they have busy schedule, but we try to cooperate with each other, was damn happy after playing finish it, thanks Zijian, Kingchi and Qimian Seniors for their time and Ziyue junior for her hardwork! She really work hard for it! Me too, hahax, BHB, but yah, i also work hard for it lor! hahax. But really thank you, we did well! Qimian looks funny, KC looks serious, Me and Ziyue trying to laugh and zijian, dun really dare look at him, will more scared and stress, but he is serious! hahax.

Next, We are Singapore, the song that i have been running around, from clash cymbal to marimba to datanggu to marimba to bass drum! hahax. Yah, this is the song that i walk around all the percussion instruments! My first time playing marimba and bass drum also, was quite busy for the whole of that song, thx jiaee too for cooperating with her dear senior who have little knowledge about marimba, I take like 2 days to practice with her, but YES! We made it!! hahax. Jiaee, happy, jiaee really work hard for this song, from the time she get the score, she really practice, sure got more than 100 times! Was very touched larx, April also did well, she manage the whole tambourine part herself, she can do it! Jiamin too, dun slack so much larx, practice more, so u wun regret. Ziyue on timpani, i dun like the timpani score, i help ziyue play one time, my leg very suan, keep change notes and eyes strainning, cuz need look at the score and stare at it attentively! But ziyue did a good job mann, she manage to play all the timpani so well!! hahax.

Next, my last and most memorable song that i have practice the most time, i will missed it and never forget all the happy times that percussion have together when we are trying to play that song well! Which is SBYG! My last time playing it le, we have perform more than 5 times bah, but this will be the last time, i missed it, all the actions that i have learn, very stupid to practice a song for so long, but its the pple that i practice with make it memorable. Ziyue Jamie and Me on Datanggu, April Jiamin and Jiaee on Cha, Brev on Luo. Memorable, the firz song that i get my action from, thanks to zijian for teaching us the action and the firz song that i know how to get the action out naturally. I will miss it, the song that i can show off too, not scared of wad shy and everything, juz raise ur hand when u need and put down ur hand, bend down, bend ur knees and everything, hold the thick sticks which are so heavy and play it well! Thanks the orchestra for the shouting too! But i still miss the part when there is no FD with us, the part that we always play and pple start to clap, that is the part i like, but its gone. hahax.

Lastly, Encore, i was laughing when i play SBYG and i use all my COW or BULL or wadever strength and hit the drum le, My last time playing it! and i think is not bad bah, the last time we play a bit fast, but shld be nice! hahax. Then Singapore, I am already like half dead, but still manage to hit the bass drum and smile to zhao at the same time! Cuz SBYG can drain my energy le! hahax. Then after that Singapore song was nice too!

Lastly, i dunno wad to say, i think as i am writing this post right, i feel like crying, its sounds like everything has gone and its over within a night, so many practice and it just finish and end in one night, a night that i will rmb, with pple around me, i shld say bye to cchyco, i will miss them and come back as an alumni to visit, a promise to them, i will be like KC, ZJ and Mian-er, always come back and help no matter what!

Lastly i want to thank all the others, i think very difficult to thank finish, thank Mdm Teo, Mr Chang and Ms Woo, for taking charge of CO, we may be the biggest CCA group, But i think we are the most united too!

Thanks to Zhaolaoshi, he is such a cute conductor! Laoda, so OMG!, he so nice that day, never watch us but come backstage help us as crew, so touch! Shimu for the coffee and the time and the encouragement that she gave at the backstage!

Thanks Senior, Kingchi, Zijian and Qimian for Percussion, Zheng Kang and HoYin from erhu, thx for the time that u spend to help us and all the alumnis who are there to cheer for us that day!

Thanks CCHYCO Percussion, i will miss you all, everyone of you! Brevian, April, Jiamin, Jiaying, Jamie, Jiaee, Ziyue, Jiayi! You all have to work hard together, a team that beats with one heart, remember? Never say die, You are the number 1, have confidence in yourself when you go on stage, carry this tradition down! Number 1s, JIAYOUS!!!!

The Sec 4s, CCHYCO peeps, Brevian, Annice, Marcus, Cheuk Tow and Jasmine.

Lastly, Thank CCHYCO peeps, some name have to say specially, sorry, if i miss out some, this are pple who have help percussion alot in moving of instru, Jiaqing, Sunchang, Junsian, Yintong, desmond, jiaxin, weiyi and some girls. sorry, girls got alot. hahax. People who have entertain me and make me this senior so happy and not lonely everytime, jasmine, jiamin, yurou, wanru, rongher, wenliu, qiwei, queenie and friends, juanning, juinying, ziqin, huanwen and the others, i think you all know who you are, all the say hi~~!!! people!

lastly,

All are good memories
It will live in my head always
CCHYCO, All the Best!
Love You All!

I have accomplish alot of things through CCHYCO, cant bear to leave, but life moves on, all i have to say is memories will stay, things are meant to be forgotten forget it, but THIS is MEMORIES that need to be REMEMBERED FOREVER! <3

Miss CCHYCO camp so much now!!!
SO FUN!
Although it it super tiring, now i prefer spending my own money and going out with junior to eat, its nicer this way, can bond us together at the same time, but the break is too short, so we ended up going to eat at the same place everytime, but whenever we eat, we joke and everyone enjoy the happy times that we have with each other to the max!!

Did alot of things these few days, but i also find that i am not improving but my juniors are all working hard and they are improving day by day! We left 3 days le, 3 days more i can said to be officially an alumni of cchyco le, which is so sad, 4 years le, although i hate it when i am in sec 1, now i love it like nothing else. Enjoy the time i have inside and the peeps inside, although every practice is tiring and stress.

Now i dun wan the concert to come faster, i wan it to come slower, thinking that i am really leaving cchy and thinking that i am leaving cchyco is more sad, one day never see my junior i am very sad and tired le. Like no laughter when i am at home, i dun wan to be lonely, dun wish to be lonely and i am not a lonely person. sianx..

3 more days le, i am leaving cchyco, suddenly have such a strong feel that i have lost everything that i have in secondary school. I hope i have a memorable time in cchy and i enjoy it, esp in cchyco, the company that my junior gave me, the time that we spend together this year, although every practice is tiring, but we hold on till the end, during the SYF period and now the concert. Everything will turn out fine that day, Everyone must cooperate that day.

I dunno wad to say le, but i think i say alot of crap here. I enjoy the camp, enjoy the time with all the seniors and juniors to the core, enjoy playing percussion with all of u all, although sometimes u all are like slacking cuz very tiring, but we are still bonded, a team that beats with one heart. No one is going to slack now okay? Everyone must work hard and do our best for the upcoming concert!

Dun be shock to see me cry on sunday, this is the last time i am going to cry this year, if anyone see it, nothing will make me heartbroken anymore. One year pass so fast, I am going to leave soon, a place where i have spend my 4 years in, the year 2009 which leave me with pleasant memory, lasting friendship and amazing friends, seniors and juniors! I just hope that the time will slow down now, to where we just started again and i will love having them all around me again and laughing everyday. missess........

Never contented in life.
Let go wad shld be let go
Give up wad shld be given up
Enjoy life and dun let anyone control it
For, i live my life, not the others.
I shall forget, the memories that shldnt be rmb.
Forget the person that i shldnt rmb.

Hi peeps, so long never post le, acty i am not busy at night and in the morning, but i think i am just lazy to post anything larx. hahax. the more free i am the more lazy i will get..

Life is still the same, i never get wad i want still, never get wad i wan....sianx..... But nevermind. it has to carry, everything has to carry on. Now my life is call CO life, practice almost everyday from morning till night, or afternn till night, at least have practice for 3-4 hours everyday. but not bad, i like to practice. Next week from 14-16 dec will be having CO CAMP! hope i enjoy it, the last camp that i am in cchyco, as in officially!

Camp will be more vigourous, but i will survive, luckily all the work that i have end this week. hahax. if not i cant enjoy in camp when i thinking that i still got alot of forms to type. But maybe i will bringing netbook over to do anything lor. hahax. i dunno wad too. hahax. but seems cool. I wan to do more forms too, cuz it equals to more money. hahax

Just open a letter this morning and find that i have gotten the Eagles Award. hahax. got $200, i can save it to buy my laptop, so happy! thx mdm teo, ms woo and mr chang. hahax. was damn happy when i see the cover, i havent get it for like 4 years le. hahax. this is the 4th time i am getting it. i feel happy, cuz my hard work paid off. not the money business, is the things that i done make me feel happy!! :D

I shall stop here, ltr going for practice from 12-6.30pm, tmr more vigourous from morning i think 10am-10pm at night. hahax. cuz i got tgccco tmr, helping them to ban zou sai ma. so long never play, i hope that i dun ruin them playing it so well.!

Chalet with clique! 231109

hahax, peeps i am so busy with CO, running outside everyday, just have some time for myself to rest and sit down and use the comp properly, without pple talking to me and asking me about things. Just came back from NZPSCO camp, clique chalet and practice practice and still practice. hahax, since 18nov, i dun ve a day that i got nothing to do until now, but i am busy and happy at the same time, didnt think of alot of stuff nowadays, just wanna settle things and live happily. I have got alot of great seniors and juniors beside me, they are eager to learn and i am happy whenever i see them learn, they are the best, i hope everyone can do their very best, its getting near and i am getting scared and worried and nervous, but i hope everything will go well until that day have arrive, it will surely be possible if we all work hard tgt!

I got nothing more to say, just that i am very busy, i have a bunch of photos that can be uploaded hahax. all the photos that i have taken and not put up in the blog. hahax.

I am so stress, but i dunno how to explain why i am stress, everything around me really gone wrong, although i try to tell pple that everything can be solve de, but i think i cant even think of a way to solve it and i am telling pple that it can be solve, so contradicting!

I dunno what i can do and what i shld do at the moment, it is such an undescriable feeling that i have, eventhough my O levels are over, it just seems that there are still things that i haven settle, is not one thing, but alot of things. sianx...

I hope everything just go the right way for me, i hope that this week can pass faster with all the things that i wan to settle, i am so looking forward to 23rd nov, cuz after that i will be more free le, from now until 23rd nov, i have to go out almost everyday and spending money on things that i wanna do.

Now i feel that having money is important!!! Never have such a feeling before. I feel like having a break, spending a day with my closest group of friends hanging out doing nothing, maybe talking to each other chatting to each other, laughing at each other jokes like nobody business and just dun think about anything that i am thinking now. I want to have a good rest, a good slp most importantly, more than 12 hours of slp if i can do it!! hahax.

Just hope that everything goes right, and i spend my days happily, if not this year really my most happy years and my most saddest year in life le, although i know as i grow, i will face more challenges, but this is a challenge that i have to overcome for the time being. I will do it, i have faith in myself, so i will jiayou!

Money is so IMPORTANT to me now.
Who can bring back my laughter?
I need a breather, a break from everything.
Just one day of break, i will be satisfied.
Just One Day.

I blogging less eventhough my O levels are over.
I think i try to seperate to day by day.

Wednesday 11Nov2009
I end my last paper today, but i dun feel the absolute joy in me, the battle that i have fight for 3 months, the things that i have study for 4 years and the time i have been waiting for for 16 years. Everything has come to an end on that day. The battle has ended, i am said to be a free person, i shld go and enjoy myself, and i did. When back to CCHYCO straight for sectional and practice with them, celebrate brev's bdae for her and practice very hard to do my best in the concert. juz hope that everything when right.

i was so happy that day
back to drumming.
but i am juz now happy.
i lost something, my DESTINATION!

Thursday 12Nov2009
When back to practice gu shi with the Kc, Zj, Qm and Zy. I am so happy, firz time the gu shi group got full house! Then we took video on how we play and look at it, the firz time was a mess at me and Zy parts, but the second time has nothing wrong, we can play the score, but without any other dynamics and things. but i think not bad le, hahax. We can still improve though. Then after that we went for dinner and when to watch a movie tgt, My girlfriend is an agent.
Then ended up going home quite late, but enjoy myself to the fullest that day! hahax.

So happy, was so wonderful.
Going out with a gang of friends. laughing.
Forgetting all the stress that i have.
I should say i have AMAZING Seniors and Juniors.

Friday 13Nov2009
I wake up damn early that day, i think at 7am. hahax. dunno for wad stupid reasons. Then went to have lunch and went to CCHYCO! We wanna show zhao our gushi that we have practice tgt for 3 times! hahax. Sounds so little, but YAY!, we succeed, he let us play de song and he wanna hear us improve again next time he hears it. Was so damn happy and nevous, me and ziyue was trembling at the part when we both playing important things. hahax. But its over, then went to dinner, but i didnt eat larx, at the zi char place and after that sit down somewhere to chat again until we all went home.

Acty, i am not in a mood that day.
Nothing to say, to talk.
I choose to keep quiet sometimes, thinking.
Thinking of other stuff, which someone has juz suddenly brought it up and shock me half dead.

14Nov2009
I wake up at 6am in the morning, i am going to earn the first pay, my first job, which is data entry+ a little stock taking. It earns me $50, first time working, both enthu and sad and tired. I think working and keeping one busy is a good way to cure stressness. But when the work stops and nothing to do for a few minutes, its just flashback. After the work, i want to watch the World Drum Night at RP with Eileen. Then after watching meet Zj and his friends to have dinner cum supper at Mac. Not bad, but drink coffee after the concert, make me damn tired. I dun wan drink coffee outside le, so tired. I feel very bad too, since i cant practice gu shi with them that day, was so damn sad and wanted to call and us if i missed out anything important or how the gu shi has go that day, got improvement or not? hahax, how i hope i was there and practice. but i am not, i am so sorry, the gu shi group.

I feel bad after i didnt go and practice.
But money matters to me alot now, i hope they can understand.
I didnt enjoy myself that day, thinking of things.
But am happy that everything seems to be smooth that day.

15Nov2009
wake up damn early again, at 7am. Then went to grandma hse, i shld thx my auntie for helping me make my nails until so nice, hahax.. Then went to watch the beautiful sunday at esplandae, but too bad, it is like full hse until so damn full and we go late, so didnt have the chance to watch, then i went to esplandae library and find scores. Then after that went to shop for gradnight, its so hard, i dun like shopping at ALL! Then i didnt find anything that i like and can wear in the end, i think i shld try to find more time to go and shop.

Was so mad at someone today.
Its over, i should have the 'don't care attitude'
Then everything will just go fine.
Peijun just stop thinking can le.


I find that i am still stress and have alot of things in mind eventhough my exams are over, having slpless night, i wake up so damn early in the morning, but i dunno wad to do, i really hope that i can slp for 24 hours now and wake up the next day, finding that everything will be solve. But it will never happen, so i will juz carry on, solve the things that shld be solve, think positively and continue to show pple how hard that one can work and motivate the others if i can and help each other on the way and not do things and say things that hurt others. Helping is a way of showing ur love.

Today wake up super early, i dunno why i cant get to slp yesterday night and i wake up damn early tonight. sianx. I think is the bad dream that i have wake me up from my sleep and i dare not go back to sleep. 2 dreams in a row, one happen today and the other i think will happen soon if everything is successful.

I shall say about the dream that happen today, it sets me thinking on my bed for around 30 minutes before i wake up. I dreamt about me relaxing like exam are really over and i am too free, when shopping with my mum at northpoint, but acty i have a paper that day which start at 2pm. I look at my phone, it is 2.10pm and i am still shopping. I am not in my uniform and i must rush home and change and rush to school by 2.30pm, half an hour before the paper start. The scary part just happen now, when i am running in a big field, which is a never ending run, i saw my destination, my house was so near, i can see it from my view, but no matter how hard i run i cant reach it, i am like staying in the place and keep running, until i am very tired and exhausted, until i cant take it anymore, i tried to run faster, its impossible.

It just seems that i never reach my destination, a place that i want to go, i think i havent have my goal, on where i want to go after O level, what shld i do? So near yet so far. I have never experience something like that before, where i cant reach my destination and my goal. But luckily this does not happen to me today, cuz i have taken my F&N paper. HAHAHAX

I think i ought to set something that i wanna do after my O level. It just seems so hopeless to me, Where i want to go? What i want to do? What can i do? I bombard myself with alot of question, i shall find the answer very soon, to the question that i ask myself. jiayou to me.

Nowadays i am more free.
Feel so hopeless in life.
I find that i lost my destination.
Once i end my O level.
I think i will make myself as BUSY as POSSIBLE!.

Super tired today, haven been having such a tired day after SYF until now.
Practice make me damn happy! and tired.
I just slept for 4 hours yesterday and here i am still blogging. hahax
I think i am used to blogging what i wanna say here.

Today wake up at 6+am, cuz going into cchy in the bright morning.
Then meet ziyue at CCHY, we acty reach around the same time.
I think i will be late if my dad didnt drive me there. sounds ridiculous.
Cuz i live too near to the school. hahahax
When to school and found that we can only practice in 2H(no aircon). hahax
But nvm, then me and ziyue practice until 8.30am like that and break until 8.45am.
But after that i still in CO room slack a while. until around 8.55am. hahahax

Then tried calling qm and kc see if they reach already.
But yah, kc cant make it and qm reach at around 9.05am? hahax.
Then we started with 3 persons practising.
Then after that was waiting for zj, he very very very late!
Nvm, forget it. yah, then after that we practice.
Acty, in my opinion, i think we make improvement, me and ziyue can cooperate well!
Then yah, we can play the piece until like not bad leh! from my opinion.!
I hope that we will be better and can show zhao asap, so that we can play!
So jiayou to us!

Then after that we went to ishi mura for lunch.
Then i meet huiqi and they go home, went out to study with huiqi and zk.
Then after that went home to bath and get some nap, but i slp for 15 mins, then my mum wake me up! hahax.
Then after that met eileen and went to watch Bro concert, his last concert.
He make my day so happy, he make me laugh like mad.
I very long never go watch band concert le.
He look so Pro on stage, with actions and a little bit of movement that i dun see in others.
I am happy that i get to see his last concert mann. i didnt missed it.
I wanted to take a photo with him, but he doesnt wan to meet me, so nvm.

But he make my day happy, i think one thing about band concert is they let the audience join in the fun when they are playing the songs, which make pple get attracted to them. But acty their percussion pple not bad, i hear le very shuang. hahax

We did a good job!
I never regret waking up early.
Making myself tired.
I enjoy the time we are practising.
The best time that i have for the day.
We can do it! Jiayou!

I still missed the spirit that CCHYCO have during our SYF, when laoda was telling me on wednesday, that he was really scared when we are drumming during SYF, he scared that something goes wrong, he say our SBYG was really good and impressive that day. But NOW, all gone, SBYG was never like before, shouting has gone, the mood when everyone was shouting so so SO loudly and the enthusiasm that struck me to drum louder has gone. Now the shouting goes soft that i think i wun dare to drum loud too.

We get GWH? But wad does GWH means? The highest award? We are one of the best? NO! In fact, i think we are never worth getting a GWH without all the hardwork that we have put in and all the help from alumni and instructor. They put their hardwork in it to teach us, but what have we done, we only perform our best for SYF, but NOW? Gone! We are like a few weeks to the concert, but i think not everyone is putting effort like SYF. When everyone was practicing so hard, just perfecting a song.

This is a different thing, a concert need cooperation from EVERYONE! Its not 2 songs we are playing now, there are no 6 months for us to practice 2 songs, but we have to complete the whole concert program and practicing in 44 days? I think is possible, but how can we make it possible? We need the help of the whole orchestra to cooperate.

I think i hope people to remember, winning is not everything, nothing comes without hardwork and practice. Musicians play for passion, we play music is not for the sake of playing it, but because we love it, the passion in us. Always remember, 台上一分钟，台下十年功。This is something that i see in people playing music, people may be good, but did u see how they practice?

Think if u can be as good as them and not impress by them. If u can do that and perform as well as them, u have accomplish something that others cant accomplish, so why not do things that others cant accoomplish but u can? Actually, everyone have the potential to accomplish things, but it just depends on how hard the person want to work hard in.

A good performer doesnt care how long he can show off to people on stage, but they care about how good their performance when they are on stage, how to impress the audience. A good performer can impress the audience even its only 10 seconds. It can be shown, the hard work u put in even u are just performing 10 seconds on stage compare to a person who have less practice and perform 1 minute. So jiayous peeps. People can do it, so can we.

This post is for CCHYCO peeps. If u got anything that you think that i say wrong, feel free to msn me or say your own view here! hahax. Lets work hard together! ;D

Hahax. Here i come blogging again, i think i will be blogging almost everyday if nothing stop me from using computer everyday, so sianx, now like very free, although i still got one more subject to work hard for, which is F&N! I really hope i can done well, but it seems that i am not putting effort in studying it now too. But now here i am blogging and talking crap.

Nvm larx, i will start tmr, i will REALLY start, cuz i think i really wasted one precious day that i have. Sianx.... I feel that i have alot of things that i want to do and accomplish after my O levels too, but i think all my things are so small, it can be done, but it takes time and maybe trust and help from pple around me, i think i will be real broke soon, with all the chalets, practice and meals that i need to pay for everytime i travel from place to place.

I really hope to earn some income myself so that i can help to earn money and no need to take from my mum. At least i am spending money that i earn and i wouldnt feel guility. I also hope that everything goes well for me after my O, i really feel like doing things out of the box, doing things that i have never done and try something new, maybe a new skills or wad. hmm....

I think i will be really free after CCHYCO concert too, if i really go to a poly, i also have to wait for the time that i get my results and wait or go to work maybe for another 3months before the school start. Thinking of it, really make me damn sian, working is for me to earn money. I think i will madly go drumming within that period of time, whenever i can i will go drumming and practice my zr. As long as things occupy me can le.

Ngai han was talking to me about the concert when we are asking if aud, viny and sha gg to watch anot, then she was saying something that i am thinking too. After the concert, we will not be people from CCHY again. We are the ex-student or alumni. And after the concert our relationship with the school and the CCHYCO will be like another status. Which is so true, i think i will cry that day, not tears of joy, not tears of sadness but tears of memories. That will be a FULL STOP in my secondary life le.

Memories that can never be forgotten, the best year in my life, with unforgettable memory and an accomplishment that i have, i have never been so into anything in my life before, never have cried so many times because things that people have done which touch me and make me sad too. I have not been so happy with my life before, i always thought life was so boring, just studying,making friends, playing, and do all craps stuff sometimes.

Suddenly i am starting to miss schooling, thinking that i got so much free time for me to do things, so i started missing it. Nothing to look forward to after O level, the things i looking forward to is to practice percussion and play it well, but other then that i really have no goals. sianx...

enough crap, end here.

I like the feeling mann! Relax feeling, like nothing to worry alot when i use my comp too. No one will care me, no one will scold me, cuz i have around 4 more days to my next paper and it is also my second last paper. F&N! Taken so so SO many paper from last week till now, i think i total of 10 papers already, now still got 2 more left, can feel the accomplishment in me.

Since today is Wednesday and my paper end quite early, of course i will go to a place! hahax. CO room, percussion having their sectional sia! so NICE! SO long never touch the instrument le, feel so rusty when i took the sticks up, was playing long teng on dagu with them. But until now i still dun understand the order of the song, becuz laoda has make some changes, So most of the time i was copying what they play.

Then after that tried the PG, when i look at the PG, i am thinking if i still can move like last time. But i think not bad larx, cuz laoda was quite impressed by me when i play PG, cuz i so long never really go and touch the instrument le, i think some practice on my house de sofa really help to improve myself and prevent me from rusting.

Then after that laoda left le, hahax. He keep calling me to work hard on my paper first, i will do it too! Then after laoda left, me, ziyue and jiaying was fixing the paigu together, i think we took quite long, cuz cant find the right size screw and the PG the side a little too small, so have to force open the metal and put the nut inside. Thx jiaying and ziyue for their help. Thx jiaee for her crap and singing too, make me laugh and irritates my ear to the core!!!

Then after fixing the PG, me and ziyue started to practice gu shi together, but sadly, we dun ve alot of time left to practice since they are going to close the CO room. sianx.. Me and ziyue only manage to run through the first part and i think i clear some of her doubts le. hahax. So we will jiayou together. hahahahahahahax. Then she was calling me to go and practice at 7am in the morning on sat, then i think also not bad, the earlier we practice, the more time we have, so i sought of agree, i dun care my sleep, but i care the practice now. hahax. okay larx, enough crapping, shall end here. bye!

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was so touched by what ziyue say in her blog, i will work hard with her no matter what.
I love Percussion too, and it will be my Best Friend Forever like everyone in CCHYCO Percussion! Jiayou to Ziyue!

Nothing goes right for me since last Friday, NOTHING!
Why things should happen when i am fighting a battle that will determine my future?
I dun wan all this unhappy things to happen, i want happy things.
Things that i can look forward to!!!

People keep stressing me this few days, i got headache almost everyday, thinking of my papers and thinking of the problems i have, be it with my friends or family.

I cant slp well everyday, i sleep around 3-5 hours everyday now, i dunno how long i can last from now till my O levels end. Nothing just goes the right way for me, but i will survive, i will stay strong and i will fight this battle myself.


I regretted things that i have done
Words that i have said
But its too late to regret
I will just hang on myself
Concentrate on my battle
Settle everything after that
Just hope that everything will turn out fine
Because i dun wan any unhappy things to happen