Today wake up super early, i dunno why i cant get to slp yesterday night and i wake up damn early tonight. sianx. I think is the bad dream that i have wake me up from my sleep and i dare not go back to sleep. 2 dreams in a row, one happen today and the other i think will happen soon if everything is successful.

I shall say about the dream that happen today, it sets me thinking on my bed for around 30 minutes before i wake up. I dreamt about me relaxing like exam are really over and i am too free, when shopping with my mum at northpoint, but acty i have a paper that day which start at 2pm. I look at my phone, it is 2.10pm and i am still shopping. I am not in my uniform and i must rush home and change and rush to school by 2.30pm, half an hour before the paper start. The scary part just happen now, when i am running in a big field, which is a never ending run, i saw my destination, my house was so near, i can see it from my view, but no matter how hard i run i cant reach it, i am like staying in the place and keep running, until i am very tired and exhausted, until i cant take it anymore, i tried to run faster, its impossible.

It just seems that i never reach my destination, a place that i want to go, i think i havent have my goal, on where i want to go after O level, what shld i do? So near yet so far. I have never experience something like that before, where i cant reach my destination and my goal. But luckily this does not happen to me today, cuz i have taken my F&N paper. HAHAHAX

I think i ought to set something that i wanna do after my O level. It just seems so hopeless to me, Where i want to go? What i want to do? What can i do? I bombard myself with alot of question, i shall find the answer very soon, to the question that i ask myself. jiayou to me.

Nowadays i am more free.
Feel so hopeless in life.
I find that i lost my destination.
Once i end my O level.
I think i will make myself as BUSY as POSSIBLE!.

Super tired today, haven been having such a tired day after SYF until now.
Practice make me damn happy! and tired.
I just slept for 4 hours yesterday and here i am still blogging. hahax
I think i am used to blogging what i wanna say here.

Today wake up at 6+am, cuz going into cchy in the bright morning.
Then meet ziyue at CCHY, we acty reach around the same time.
I think i will be late if my dad didnt drive me there. sounds ridiculous.
Cuz i live too near to the school. hahahax
When to school and found that we can only practice in 2H(no aircon). hahax
But nvm, then me and ziyue practice until 8.30am like that and break until 8.45am.
But after that i still in CO room slack a while. until around 8.55am. hahahax

Then tried calling qm and kc see if they reach already.
But yah, kc cant make it and qm reach at around 9.05am? hahax.
Then we started with 3 persons practising.
Then after that was waiting for zj, he very very very late!
Nvm, forget it. yah, then after that we practice.
Acty, in my opinion, i think we make improvement, me and ziyue can cooperate well!
Then yah, we can play the piece until like not bad leh! from my opinion.!
I hope that we will be better and can show zhao asap, so that we can play!
So jiayou to us!

Then after that we went to ishi mura for lunch.
Then i meet huiqi and they go home, went out to study with huiqi and zk.
Then after that went home to bath and get some nap, but i slp for 15 mins, then my mum wake me up! hahax.
Then after that met eileen and went to watch Bro concert, his last concert.
He make my day so happy, he make me laugh like mad.
I very long never go watch band concert le.
He look so Pro on stage, with actions and a little bit of movement that i dun see in others.
I am happy that i get to see his last concert mann. i didnt missed it.
I wanted to take a photo with him, but he doesnt wan to meet me, so nvm.

But he make my day happy, i think one thing about band concert is they let the audience join in the fun when they are playing the songs, which make pple get attracted to them. But acty their percussion pple not bad, i hear le very shuang. hahax

We did a good job!
I never regret waking up early.
Making myself tired.
I enjoy the time we are practising.
The best time that i have for the day.
We can do it! Jiayou!

I still missed the spirit that CCHYCO have during our SYF, when laoda was telling me on wednesday, that he was really scared when we are drumming during SYF, he scared that something goes wrong, he say our SBYG was really good and impressive that day. But NOW, all gone, SBYG was never like before, shouting has gone, the mood when everyone was shouting so so SO loudly and the enthusiasm that struck me to drum louder has gone. Now the shouting goes soft that i think i wun dare to drum loud too.

We get GWH? But wad does GWH means? The highest award? We are one of the best? NO! In fact, i think we are never worth getting a GWH without all the hardwork that we have put in and all the help from alumni and instructor. They put their hardwork in it to teach us, but what have we done, we only perform our best for SYF, but NOW? Gone! We are like a few weeks to the concert, but i think not everyone is putting effort like SYF. When everyone was practicing so hard, just perfecting a song.

This is a different thing, a concert need cooperation from EVERYONE! Its not 2 songs we are playing now, there are no 6 months for us to practice 2 songs, but we have to complete the whole concert program and practicing in 44 days? I think is possible, but how can we make it possible? We need the help of the whole orchestra to cooperate.

I think i hope people to remember, winning is not everything, nothing comes without hardwork and practice. Musicians play for passion, we play music is not for the sake of playing it, but because we love it, the passion in us. Always remember, 台上一分钟，台下十年功。This is something that i see in people playing music, people may be good, but did u see how they practice?

Think if u can be as good as them and not impress by them. If u can do that and perform as well as them, u have accomplish something that others cant accomplish, so why not do things that others cant accoomplish but u can? Actually, everyone have the potential to accomplish things, but it just depends on how hard the person want to work hard in.

A good performer doesnt care how long he can show off to people on stage, but they care about how good their performance when they are on stage, how to impress the audience. A good performer can impress the audience even its only 10 seconds. It can be shown, the hard work u put in even u are just performing 10 seconds on stage compare to a person who have less practice and perform 1 minute. So jiayous peeps. People can do it, so can we.

This post is for CCHYCO peeps. If u got anything that you think that i say wrong, feel free to msn me or say your own view here! hahax. Lets work hard together! ;D

Hahax. Here i come blogging again, i think i will be blogging almost everyday if nothing stop me from using computer everyday, so sianx, now like very free, although i still got one more subject to work hard for, which is F&N! I really hope i can done well, but it seems that i am not putting effort in studying it now too. But now here i am blogging and talking crap.

Nvm larx, i will start tmr, i will REALLY start, cuz i think i really wasted one precious day that i have. Sianx.... I feel that i have alot of things that i want to do and accomplish after my O levels too, but i think all my things are so small, it can be done, but it takes time and maybe trust and help from pple around me, i think i will be real broke soon, with all the chalets, practice and meals that i need to pay for everytime i travel from place to place.

I really hope to earn some income myself so that i can help to earn money and no need to take from my mum. At least i am spending money that i earn and i wouldnt feel guility. I also hope that everything goes well for me after my O, i really feel like doing things out of the box, doing things that i have never done and try something new, maybe a new skills or wad. hmm....

I think i will be really free after CCHYCO concert too, if i really go to a poly, i also have to wait for the time that i get my results and wait or go to work maybe for another 3months before the school start. Thinking of it, really make me damn sian, working is for me to earn money. I think i will madly go drumming within that period of time, whenever i can i will go drumming and practice my zr. As long as things occupy me can le.

Ngai han was talking to me about the concert when we are asking if aud, viny and sha gg to watch anot, then she was saying something that i am thinking too. After the concert, we will not be people from CCHY again. We are the ex-student or alumni. And after the concert our relationship with the school and the CCHYCO will be like another status. Which is so true, i think i will cry that day, not tears of joy, not tears of sadness but tears of memories. That will be a FULL STOP in my secondary life le.

Memories that can never be forgotten, the best year in my life, with unforgettable memory and an accomplishment that i have, i have never been so into anything in my life before, never have cried so many times because things that people have done which touch me and make me sad too. I have not been so happy with my life before, i always thought life was so boring, just studying,making friends, playing, and do all craps stuff sometimes.

Suddenly i am starting to miss schooling, thinking that i got so much free time for me to do things, so i started missing it. Nothing to look forward to after O level, the things i looking forward to is to practice percussion and play it well, but other then that i really have no goals. sianx...

enough crap, end here.

I like the feeling mann! Relax feeling, like nothing to worry alot when i use my comp too. No one will care me, no one will scold me, cuz i have around 4 more days to my next paper and it is also my second last paper. F&N! Taken so so SO many paper from last week till now, i think i total of 10 papers already, now still got 2 more left, can feel the accomplishment in me.

Since today is Wednesday and my paper end quite early, of course i will go to a place! hahax. CO room, percussion having their sectional sia! so NICE! SO long never touch the instrument le, feel so rusty when i took the sticks up, was playing long teng on dagu with them. But until now i still dun understand the order of the song, becuz laoda has make some changes, So most of the time i was copying what they play.

Then after that tried the PG, when i look at the PG, i am thinking if i still can move like last time. But i think not bad larx, cuz laoda was quite impressed by me when i play PG, cuz i so long never really go and touch the instrument le, i think some practice on my house de sofa really help to improve myself and prevent me from rusting.

Then after that laoda left le, hahax. He keep calling me to work hard on my paper first, i will do it too! Then after laoda left, me, ziyue and jiaying was fixing the paigu together, i think we took quite long, cuz cant find the right size screw and the PG the side a little too small, so have to force open the metal and put the nut inside. Thx jiaying and ziyue for their help. Thx jiaee for her crap and singing too, make me laugh and irritates my ear to the core!!!

Then after fixing the PG, me and ziyue started to practice gu shi together, but sadly, we dun ve alot of time left to practice since they are going to close the CO room. sianx.. Me and ziyue only manage to run through the first part and i think i clear some of her doubts le. hahax. So we will jiayou together. hahahahahahahax. Then she was calling me to go and practice at 7am in the morning on sat, then i think also not bad, the earlier we practice, the more time we have, so i sought of agree, i dun care my sleep, but i care the practice now. hahax. okay larx, enough crapping, shall end here. bye!

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was so touched by what ziyue say in her blog, i will work hard with her no matter what.
I love Percussion too, and it will be my Best Friend Forever like everyone in CCHYCO Percussion! Jiayou to Ziyue!

Nothing goes right for me since last Friday, NOTHING!
Why things should happen when i am fighting a battle that will determine my future?
I dun wan all this unhappy things to happen, i want happy things.
Things that i can look forward to!!!

People keep stressing me this few days, i got headache almost everyday, thinking of my papers and thinking of the problems i have, be it with my friends or family.

I cant slp well everyday, i sleep around 3-5 hours everyday now, i dunno how long i can last from now till my O levels end. Nothing just goes the right way for me, but i will survive, i will stay strong and i will fight this battle myself.


I regretted things that i have done
Words that i have said
But its too late to regret
I will just hang on myself
Concentrate on my battle
Settle everything after that
Just hope that everything will turn out fine
Because i dun wan any unhappy things to happen

Hahax, today take the first paper of the O level, and it is the most important paper for O level sia! hahax. I think still not bad, i think i can make it, lol. hope that nothing goes wrong. For the next 4 days i will be taking Emaths paper 1, Emaths paper 2, Amaths paper 1 and Amaths paper 2. hahax. All the papers are in the afternn at 2.30pm. hahax. lol. i shall keep my post short and sweet, LOL. i still got 9 more days to tolerate, then i can be a little free. hahax. jiayous!

What has happen, one day before my English paper start and what someone has tell me make me think the whole day. Its never like before, we are like a rope that snap, we are not hanging on to each other, we dun tie the knot when we are gg to fall. We dont share a common interest anymore. Not like before, what has happen? but i cant settle it now, i really feel like settling it. I only hope that the person we find can help us solve the problem now. Solve it well and return me what i have lost, the bond between us. Let it be strong again, 10 is better than 1. So i want 10, i dun want 1! hahax.

I feel like having a shoulder to lie on, i am too stress up with too much things that happen around, friendship, exams and alot of stuff which i cant say here. I am so damn stress up, nthing is going right when i want it to be and when things are going wrong, it may lead me to the wrong way too. But i shld stay on path, which i know. Too many things to settle, my mind is filled with information and things that i cant settle myself. I feel very stress up as the days get nearer, but there is one thing that can make me a happy person and live well and solve all my problems.

Things occupy me this year, the year that i have been most stress and confused on what i am doing, things occur, without me knowing, without me getting involved, but i am affected, greatly affected. I really hope that my O levels can pass as soon as possible, i will study hard and solve all the problems i currently have, i will have the strength within me, the courage that is in me, i want to bring back what i have lost and bring things back to normal in my life. Let me do it, i know I CAN!

I need cooperation from people, i know i can do it, but sometimes it may be too late. Nothing is impossible in life, lets solve it tgt, as a team that beat with one hearts and play with one sound. We can go back to before, a few months ago, but all we need is understanding and cooperation. Sorry, if i sound like crapping, and mixing around what i want to say. I think people that is involved will really understand what i mean.


disheartened to see what has happen
but what can i do?
nothing is more important than u all.
the one that is in my life
the best friends that i have.
is still u all
no matter what age we are in
i dun care, i juz wan u all back as ONE!
The One and Only other place doesnt have.
i really need support, a support that can help me.

PICTURES!!
These are the pictures we took on 17 October 2009.
KC's belated bdae celebration! so fun.
This are only some of the pictures, there are more!!!

argh!! O level coming, i still have 10 more days to complete all my subject.
i still got like eng, emaths, amaths, chem, phy, geog, SS and F&N!
acty, its oly 8 more subjects, i hope i take pure for everything sometimes.
cuz humans have 2 subjects, science also have 2. hahax. but its impossible!

sometimes i damn feel like giving up on humans!!
sianx, since i wanna go food science and technology in SP.
So humans dunnit to count in L1R4.
As in the day pass i am getting more happier and stress and pressure.
like having alot of mixed feelings, so undescribable.
i think sometimes i dun think so much about any friends who is around me better.
will make me better. so that i dun think so much.

imagaining that after 27 days of like mugging and looking at books and EXAMS!
i will be going to be free for like half a year, thinking of it make me damn happy!!
i also hope that O level pass as fast as possible.
but the results come in as slow~~~ as possible.
holidays pass as slow~~~ as possible too.
then i got more time to enjoy.

i really hope that i can get my 14 points. so that i can go to the course i want.
so yah, i shldnt blog le, hahax. shld go and study and jiayou for my O level!!!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAX!!!! BYE!!!

hahax. 4 more official sch days and i am out of CCHY, hahax.
4 years seem SO fast, 4 years in CCHY, left 4 days now!
i will really miss my friends!! we must keep in contact!
hahax, imagining i have 20 days left to O levels!
37 days to go to become a super free person!
OKay, not SUPER free, just not studying.
If i going poly, i will have a like 5mths++ break!
I think after that i wouldnt have mood to study! hahax.
But have break better than dun ve! i should study now!!
After this 4 days of sch days, i will be having 2 weeks study break!
then O level start! acty after 4 Nov, i am quite free le!
cuz my next paper is on 9 Nov, which is F&N, still got 5 days to study!!
But must do my best! since i have so many days to study!
so muz at least do well in F&N!!!

hahax. i hope that i can get 12 points for L1B4! hahax.
sounds difficult when i am blogging NOW!
hahax. But yah, i dun wanna score 15 and above
since i want to go Food Science and Technology in SP!
Hope that i can get in!! hahax.. bye

hahax, blogging AGAIN!
Yah, have some events in TGCC.
Then we perform again, hahax.
Was quite sian, the stage very small! hahax.
I think my last time gg to TGCCO.
But i think i will be back on 14 nov! hahax.

After my O, i will be real busy! Busy! BUSY!!!
hahax, nvm lar. i like busy life!
But thinking that my EVERY sat and sun will be gone.
Hahax, but happy larx.
Means that sat and sun got frens to pei me.! hahax.

i think i shall end here. bye

I am back to blogging.
I think as the days past and O level getting nearer.
I get SLACKER!
But now better bah, having mock exam. SO i will more or less study.
But i think the mock exam is still not of any use!
I just have to bear 11 more days of mock exam, then i can study on my own.
Cuz the mock exam make me too tired to study when i get home.
Anw, i did a very funny thing and an accomplishment.
I went to CO room and say HI to laoda and leave.
Then after my lesson, i went back again and say BYE to laoda.
hahax. i acty manage to get in and go out, in less than a minute.
AN ACCOMPLISHMENT! Although i wanna stay and touch the instru.
Nvm, i just have to bear with it for another 7 weeks!
Really 7 Weeks, 49 days frm now.
It will be the last day of my O level! hahax.
SO, Peijun JIAYOU!
Thats all i have to say, i think my blog dead le.
No one come and read le. D:
But nvm, i still blog to update the things i do.

finally. my prelim 2 has ended.
i think i still have 1 mth plus to work hard!
ah, not enough time!
this year seems to pass super FAST!
firz SYF, practice and practice.
then chi paper, june holiday.
prelim 1, then now prelim 2!
its like so fast, i am leaving the sch.
i think i will miss sec sch life soon.
but life muz still carry on. hahax.
ard 2 more months ltr, i can REST too.
like FINALLY! hahax.
so yah, nthin to tok about le.
bye.

Today is a very happy day for me, i got back my Chinese 'O' Level results. Remember the days that i have start revising my Chinese, this is the subject that i hope to get the best result in, and i got it. I got A1 for my chinese, but this is just one subject out of my 7 subjects that i took.

These are the dates that i took my Chinese O level:
1st June 2009- Chinese language paper 1 and paper 2
16th July 2009-Chinese Oral
22nd July 2009-Chinese listening comprehension

Like what my teacher say, this is just a small hurdle in life, we still have many major and big hurdle to cross and the upcoming one is the O Level. But it really is a small hurdle in our life, we do not know what will happen next time, so i think that those of my friend who did not did well should not spent their time crying and be upset about it, but Jiayous and work hard for the upcoming O level that will be taking place in 2 months time.

I think there is more important things in life coming up for people, i think as we grow, we may think that crying for such minor things are very stupid and will think that it is no worth it. I think so too, but i got A1, of cause i didn't cry for it, i have been thinking positively about it, but the time when my results is being released i am really nervous and scared that i did not get the results i want and dissapoint my mother and teachers.

I am glad that i did not need to retake it again too. If i am going to a polytechnic, i really don't need to care about chinese anymore NOW! Now, as i know my chinese results, i should continue to work hard for my other 6 subjects and do well! jiayous PEI JUN!!!

i am sick again. hahax
lol, coughing non stop frm i dunno wad day until now.
when to see doctor in the afternn and get 1 day MC.
lucky oly one day!!
then now i want to slp le.
firz time slp so early. hahax. lol
cuz of the medicine, make me so so so sleepy!

juz did some quiz frm facebook which cant be publish.
some quote quiz about me.

Which Quote Is The Quote For You?
my results: Oneday someone will walk into your life, and make you realize why it never worked with anyone else.
Who knows, maybe their already in your life, you just can't open your eyes and give them the time of day to realize it because your too stuck on mrs./mr. popularity. Maybe you should just wait for them to come to you. Just take the hint when they give it to you.

What's your cute quote?
my results: I'm tired of playing pretend. Pretending is for schoolchildren. Maybe i just wanna fall in love for real this time.
Your soo tired of all these assholes, it's time for something different. You hate throwing the word "love" around and you want it for real this time.

these are the 2 results i got. hahax.. totally describe me now. hahax. i shld stop pretending. hahax.. and carry on with life.!

if there is a will, there is a WAY!
pretending is not a way to solve things.
neither is a way to forget things.
so i shld juz stop.hahax...

this post is purely to my jie jie who has change my life.
i think by right i know her for like 5 years, since the year i join CO.
but i get to know her better and better last year.
when we went to tgccco together almost every week
she is older then me, like my elder sister.
she guide me along in alot of things.
during the period when i am feeling really happy.
i neglected her and found myself with a group of frens. the percusio.
bcuz of the SYF period i have bah.
then after SYF, we got back again, CLOSER..
we get closer and closer, i have told her alot of things about me and myself.
maybe she is the ONE and oly who know so much about me.
i told her almost all my secrets and a very big secret which has been bothering me.
for MONTHS!
she is the one who was at my side when i am feeling real low and try to ask me.
but i didnt say anything, i am so sorry.
everything happen this year.!
my most happiest year in my life
my most emo-ing year in my life
my most saddest year in my life
my most crying year in my life
the year that i have most of my emotion.
because of something that i cant reveal.
but she was always there for me.
consoling me when i am down.
we also have our up and down.
i have mood swings too. but i think still acceptable.
i have always been in a daze nowadays, not caring wad happen ard me.
but this year esp. i have been really emotional and need a breather.
i think i fall ill nowadays bcuz of that bah.
i didnt overwork myself, but i overthink myself.
i shld stop thinking now.
i muz listen to my jie jie.
some things are not WORTH thinking.
really not WORTH.
i shant be affected by wad doesnt happen to me and stop THINKING!
i think i get along well with pple older then me too.
better to tok to, better to communicate.
i wish that my jie jie find a job that suit her and jiayous in finding a BF!!! HAHAHAHAHAX!!!
a guy that love her, and she love the guy too.
i wish that our friendship will last FOREVER...
and no one can affect our friendship.
esp the person... I DUN CARE HIM LE.

today kinda have a fun and enjoyable day bah.
hahax.. not thinking of anything that i shldnt be thinking.
today dun ve RC de CO. then went out with my mum dad and bro to pray.
then went there and saw jolene, so long nv see her, she is still so shy.
then after that went shopping at Sheng shiong. hahax.
nthin to shop larx, juz wanna walk ard, since we all go out tgt today!
but the sheng shiong very big, got 3 floors. with foodcourt too.
then shop finish le went to eat some dessert with my bro and mum.
eat bo bo cha cha and red ruby. i eat very FAST!
cuz my bro will snatch frm me. hahax.. cuz i eat dessert super SLOW de.
but i cant be as fast as my bro!!
then after that bought a plate of char kway teow and eat!
hahax, i am suppose to be the one who is hungry!
but my bro eat more than me when he say i am hungry!!!
then after that went to shop again and find my dad then we go to ah pei yi yi hse.
we go and fetch qi rui to ah mah hse. hahax..
qi rui firz time sitting lorry! hahax.
shld be quite interesting to him, and noisy!!!
hahax... then i sat behind the lorry with bro until i dun wanna get down.
very shuang sitting behind. in a good position!
but have to get down since my dad gg somewhere and i reach ah mah hse le.
then after that went to ah mah hse.
everyone see me like long lost fren like that.
hahax, i nv go down for 3 weeks le.!
then after that play with qi rui and tok with family.
hahax, today full house. all 20 of us are there!!
we watch fireworks frm ah mah hse, since it was 25th storey high! hahax..
then now, i am at home slacking again!!! hahax..
okay, finish le. bye.

i muz thank eileen too, for helping me edit my testimonial! it look so perfect now. hahax..

more things shld occupy my mind now
then i wun be thinking as much. hahax
being happy everyday is me.
being not happy everyday is not me.
but i dun wanna be happy everyday.
pple may think i am mad!
but i will try to be happy.

hahax.. today was a sianx day..
but at least there is sumthing to occupy my mind!
today in the afternn my mum take me to go make specs.
at the shop infront of sheng shiong.
the uncle there not bad larx.
hahax.. i bought i more not nerdy specs.
which is brown and black in colour.
its half frame de and i think i quite suit it larx.
the brand call levelnine and it is make by koo tian le i think.
but it cost me like 280 altgt! super ex.
but my mum say i look more nice and trendy in that.
better then this nerdy specs.
hahax, the person in the shop said that too.

was somehow very very bored.
then i went to TGCCCO today.
as i said i will go back like at least once a month bah
to relax myself and to keep up on wad is happening.
i met eileen at katib mrt and went down with her.
she go eat pie kia. hahax..
bought a pair of earring with her too, same de.
after that went to CO.
lee lao shi juz told me that we will have performance on 26 sept.
he call me to perform, he say i can juz go on that day and perform.
but i dunno i shld go anot, cuz it is 1 mth away frm my O level.
then he say going to have a small concert in CC on 19th december.
hahax, then cchyco got concert on 17th december.
i scared i cant manage both side the concert well.
so i am considered OCCUPIED with CO! after my O level.
hahax, but i will find time to work larx.
i wanna earn money le.
to satisfy myself. hahax...
thats all i have to say for today.


i shld try to forget things NOW.
smiling and laughing can throw things aside?
if it can, i will laugh and smile everyday.
better then cry and sad everyday.

hi pple,
blog about wad has happen in school these few days again.
school was the same, bored!!!
i have been going CO everyday and i am tired.
but i still did my hmwk everyday and study!
hahax.. but little larx, dun really have the motivation to study.

tues was a okay day, was not tired and was playing.
wed have sectional, i went to see, study and practice abit for todays performance.
thur have rehersal with CO in the MPH, i think mdm teo very understanding..
i have been asking her really can perform ar, cuz if cant perform i nvm de,
juz let them perform themselves. since i am not impt.
then she say, my last national day in cchy le.. so say okay de larx.
she say she will be my back up if i go and play.

finally TODAY!
have a great performance with them.
feel so contented.
ms woo say the same thing to me when we walking to MPH.
she call me to juz go and play.
she will back me up at the back if anything happen.
but ya, nthin happen. hahax.. i play SBYG!
i am happy, feel like crying when i play it mann.
so long, it has been so long.
the actions! the shouting!
the music, although we have played it tgt alot of times.
but is not the amount of times that we play it make me happy.
but juz by hearing the song make me damn happy le!!
the actions that percussion has is the most memorable de!
nthin can compare to the action.
we took time and sweat to learn the action and we still rmb!
hahax. i wun forget it de! the thing that will stay with me until i am old.!
the unforgotten secondary 4 life i had!

hahax, sophia, sally and viny say i was very shuai! when i play the drum!
hahax.. doesnt look like me, hahax..
i am shuai and cool. hahx. lol. percussion de best!!
okay. enough of today le.
i am tired and i think i am damn work up frm monday until now.
have not been having good slp since mon until now!
now i have alot of things to do le.
i muz jiayous and dun think so much abt other thing!



i dont know wad happen.
i juz cant help thinking!
wad has happen to me?
i shld stop thinking!
and juz study and study and STUDY!
until my O level finish.
then i will think again!
i miss that someone..

today is a very tired day for me.
i feel like shouting loudly infront of a deep blue sea.
nthin can describe my feeling now.
i am lack of sleep. i slept 2 hours and does alot of tings.
when to sch, do F&N for like 5hrs.
go CO see their rehersal was a mess.
i am sorry to say that, it is a mess.
i dun blame anyone for that. since the sec 4 are all gone.
they need to be independent le. i cant be there everytime.
sometimes is a must to do the things needed for performance.

ziyue dun care wad pple say, do wad u think is right. u are percussion SL!
i know is ur first time or second time. u dun ve enough experience.
but as a SL, esp percussion SL. u muz see everything!
see everything that u need to bring and make sure everything is there.
when u are going to pack up make sure everything is there and not LOST!
percussion jiayous! u all can do it de! :D

i find that cchyco percussion will be missed by me!
ngai han felt equally the same as me.
tears can juz flow out thinking of the happy times that we had together.
the SYF period esp. where everyong seems so united!
we work together. a big big family. that consists of more than 80pples!
from different ages, classes, instrus, gender and etc.
but we play in unison. as a team! a big team.
it sounds like 80pples=1 song!
i like the feeling of being in a team.
the feeling of enjoying every moment with my frens.
same goes to tgccco too. enjoy every performance with u all.
tired but happy. lets play SBYG again!

i will be performing with them on friday!
super happy, but dun think that i wil help u all with all the instrus!
i will oly care about my BAOBEI!
he is my BAOBEI and ALWAYS mine!
so sad, ziyue so cute, but she got hard time playing it.
she wear high heels and tip toe some more when playing it.
ms woo say she think that i go play better. cuz she so small and kelian like that.
i will end my conver here. i am happy that i finally finish my PART B!

there is nthin i can do now.
nthin! nthin! nthin!
i will juz concentrate and see and wait.
so many things happen.
i dunno how to react.
help me find PEIJUN back.

sry readers, its been so so so long since i blog.
hahax.. lol. okay larx. 1 week bah.
i will update on wad i have done roughly for this week.
mon, tues, wed, fri has been rotting at home, cuz of 4 days MC
jump to thurs.!
thurs i went to SYF closing ceremony.
hahax. was so so so happy. meet eileen at raffles city
then when to the shokudo to have dinner.
the food there is nice de! hahax.. have the fried fish omu rice.
and shared a waffle with ice cream with eileen.
after that went to esplanade and watch the SYF closing ceremony.
i think NYJC laoshu played well. hahax.. i cant wait to play laoshu in percussion too.
so cute! hahax.
then the china tanbo yue peeps. the song they play damn nice
they play and sing at the same time. the song juz flow.
heard that they oly practice the song oly once and they can play le.
then after that lastly SYCO.
so omg, i like the tian wang!! nv heard b4.
but when i heard that day was really nice.
as for taiyang is my 2nd time hearing them play le but this time is SYCO.
is still nice and good.! hahax.

saturday.
wake up super early in the morning which i dunno y.
went to sch and have SS lesson and went back home again.
was chioing my F&N when i am home.
after that went back to cchy and help percussion fixed things.
i am glad that i did went to help and teach ziyue.
cuz when they reach the katong they got police check.
then they open the bass drum to let the police check.
so if i nv teach ziyue, she will be stuck there.
hahax. but ya, their firz time gg performance.
they did a great job! continue to work hard!

sunday. didnt went to ah mah hse. it has been 2 weeks.
i think she shld be sad le.
i am so sorry that i didnt went larx. have to chiong my F&N.
i will surely go next week, hahax. cuz national day.
muz give myself a BREAK!
okay. i shall end my post here. bye.

there are things meant to be rmb.
things meant to be forgotten.
i wan to choose to forget!
there is never enough in life.
live with a meaning.
a meaning for urself.
not for others.
everything will be solve.

wah. today has been a real tired day for me.!!
i slept at ard 3am today and i dunno why i wake up at 6am in the morning..
and get to slp ard 7am and wake up at 8am to prepare.
i am meetin sally to go to BK to find mr goh. but sally a little late.
i am not having enough slp and i am doing so so SO many THINGS!!!
went to BK at 8.30am and left at 9.50am. went back to school.
to have SS frm mrs tan. SS lasted for 2 hrs!!! damn tired le.
then went back home and try to get some sleep. since is 12.30pm oly.
and i muz reach cchyco to practice with them at 2.30pm oly.
but when i reach they still slacking and practising on their own lor.
so i got nthin to do. rot there and somehw fell aslp while listening to songs.
then after that really my turn to pract with them le.
then was practising with them, then ZK came back and HELP!!
hahahahx.. my drumset skills sucks lor.
so lousy!! i very long nv play drumset le.!
then after that we use hand carry lor, to the perf area.
which is like so impossible, shld hire a lorry to bring the instru.
lucky mr chang got car!
but i keep asking him he DARE a NOT? if he dare i dare to STUFF!!
then ya. he dare lor. then i dare to stuff too! hahax.
ya. then stuff and stuff. ended up i have a empty trolley!!!
then i still need to push the trolley there larx. convenient if anything happen.
then ended up i put my stick bag and cymbal bag and a gaoyinsheng on top and push it there.
hahax. very guai larx. juz use trolley to push this things! hahax.
then when reach i use time to set up the instru lor. then after that have rehersal there.
and BREAK! hahax.. break i dunno wad to do leh.
oly sec 4 there.! hahax.. lol. then i walk walk with the juniors. hahax. then ended up sitting in mac. cuz got aircon and good environment for me to rest a while!
then after that performance gg to start le. walk back to the performing area again.
met eileen there and i am not LONELY anymore.
hahax.. after that saw mom, eileen and some cchyco peeps. cumin down to watch and support.
after performance push all the instru back to cchyco. then after that walk back to katib central with eileen and ZK again.
to have dinner and shopping ard there. hahx..
then after that they say wanna cum my hse. and they came lor. hahax..
hahax.. for this i shant elaborate further. ZK and eileen make me super tired after my long day of events. they left my hse at 11pm only!!! hahax.. but thanks to them i enjoy my day and learn sumthing at the same time! hahax..
i wanna rest le. night! and bye!

ALL sec 2 percussion peeps! get well soon!!!
so terrible today, i have a troubled day today larx..
juz heard frm ziyue that she got fever too ard 12++pm in the afternn.
jiaying, jiaee, jamie and ziyue all got fever! i hope they get well soon!
the schools seems like spreading fever everywhere!!
maybe i will get too. but until now i dun ve and i dun wan to have..
tmr there is performance. they are all sick!? how can they perform?
so i think i am gg to take over them tmr, hope my drumset skills is not lousy!! but i think i am!
nvm. i will do my best! juz hope that they get well and juz join in for the performance.
bye.

today is a tiring day
wake up in the morning ard 7.30am.
sleep at 2am, hahax..
i oly take 5.5hrs of sleep.
hahax.. i think better when i have exam.
i sleep LESSER!!!
hahax
wake up le then change and walk to mrt to get the cymbal bag frm zijian.
thx him for returning. since ziyue scared mdm teo scold if we use hand.
hahax.. sry for letting him bring it down early in the morning.
i damn guai4 acty. cuz i was like walking opp direction from the rest.
they walking to sch but i walking away frm sch.. hahahx
nvm.. then after that saw jiaee and wanru in sch.
dear ziyue haven reach sch too.. hahax..
so i have to wait to pass her the keys.
then after that ziyue reach le. we chat a little in CO room.
hahax.. although they got arrange the CO room, but still quite messy leh.
hahax.. nvm.. after that i have lessen frm morning all the a until 2.40pm
then next lesson is at 3pm which is Emaths. hahax, getting back my paper!
haahx.. i thnk mr goh wanna chiong finish our paper. he count like less 10 marks for me.
so i can add 10 marks! hahax.. i was so shock. 10 MARKS is alot! hahax..
but i didnt get the marks i wan to get larx. so sad! hahax. nvm i will work hard for next prelim!
hahax.. after Emath lesson i got erm.. F&N from 4pm to 5pm... hahax.. damn tired.
when i in the comp lab when mdm ng toking abt F&N i trying to b enthu, but acty i very tired! hahax.. flood myself with words and copying and noting down wad she say! hahax..
then after that wanna do research in comp lab, cnt tahan anymore. ahhax..
at last, HEHE!!! i went to CO room and play lor. hahax.. since they haven ended!
play play play until like 6++pm than left. cuz dear ziyue SL has to lock the CO room. so we are the last to leave! hahax. then after that went back home with them. but my mum wan buy dinner. meet her under my block and went shopping+dinner. hahax. at last i reach home at 8PM!! hahax..
so OMG! i cant imagine myself being outside for 12hrs wearing school uniform. haax.. not firz time larx.. but tiring lor.! hahax..
i will be wearing my Malay ethnic costume on thur which Fatimah auntie lend me!
thx to her, i will be able to wear something related to other races on racial harmony day!
hahax.. i think my firz time! hahax.. maybe my last time too! hehe..
as ms woo is the NE dunno wad thing.. she make it compulsory for us to wear.
since is our last year in CCHY too! hahax..
okay, i shall end here. bye!

i have a very bad day today!
acty i shldnt bother! cuz i think that is nthing!
i wrote this for memory! nvm..
take my Amath back today, from wad i know i will fail!
and i FAILED! hahax.. nvm.. its expected!
i juz have to continue to work hard!
now working hard on F&N, cuz the due date of my coursework is super near!!
now i have no time to bother about my MATHS!
hahax.. after Amath today, when to LT for chinese.
go through the chinese listening compre that i have last week.
hahax.. i got 9 out of 10 questions right, i think not bad larx..
hahax, got a stupid question wrong.! hahax..
then after that when returning from the LT to classrm.
saw a person which is damn irritating.
i am getting fuck up by him! nobody dare to say that to me and he acty DID!
call me to bang the WALL!!! hahax. wad position is he to say that to me?
as if he is my father! hahax. even my father does not dare to tell me that!
nvm.. i dun think i shld WASTE my precious time to think of this things!
hahax.. is juz a waste of time getting ANGRY with pple.
sry readers for me using the F word! i dun usually use it, unless i am too angry!
then after that got back my chem marks! hahax. i passed!! but not very good marks.!
nvm.. i will work hard too, hahax.. maybe prelim 2 without my F&N bothering me i will do better!
hahax.. after tis nthin much, mrs tan has come out with a plan for SS and F&N has been gg to comp lab to do coursework part A. hahax..
i think i shld be finishing soon, hopefully by end of this mth. hehe.
then today nthin much to tok abt bah! hahax.. lol..
i dun wan to get angry over small things and over pple. hahax. make myself angry is not good for health! hahax.. lol.
thx peeps for reading my blog! hahax.