Miss CCHYCO camp so much now!!!
SO FUN!
Although it it super tiring, now i prefer spending my own money and going out with junior to eat, its nicer this way, can bond us together at the same time, but the break is too short, so we ended up going to eat at the same place everytime, but whenever we eat, we joke and everyone enjoy the happy times that we have with each other to the max!!

Did alot of things these few days, but i also find that i am not improving but my juniors are all working hard and they are improving day by day! We left 3 days le, 3 days more i can said to be officially an alumni of cchyco le, which is so sad, 4 years le, although i hate it when i am in sec 1, now i love it like nothing else. Enjoy the time i have inside and the peeps inside, although every practice is tiring and stress.

Now i dun wan the concert to come faster, i wan it to come slower, thinking that i am really leaving cchy and thinking that i am leaving cchyco is more sad, one day never see my junior i am very sad and tired le. Like no laughter when i am at home, i dun wan to be lonely, dun wish to be lonely and i am not a lonely person. sianx..

3 more days le, i am leaving cchyco, suddenly have such a strong feel that i have lost everything that i have in secondary school. I hope i have a memorable time in cchy and i enjoy it, esp in cchyco, the company that my junior gave me, the time that we spend together this year, although every practice is tiring, but we hold on till the end, during the SYF period and now the concert. Everything will turn out fine that day, Everyone must cooperate that day.

I dunno wad to say le, but i think i say alot of crap here. I enjoy the camp, enjoy the time with all the seniors and juniors to the core, enjoy playing percussion with all of u all, although sometimes u all are like slacking cuz very tiring, but we are still bonded, a team that beats with one heart. No one is going to slack now okay? Everyone must work hard and do our best for the upcoming concert!

Dun be shock to see me cry on sunday, this is the last time i am going to cry this year, if anyone see it, nothing will make me heartbroken anymore. One year pass so fast, I am going to leave soon, a place where i have spend my 4 years in, the year 2009 which leave me with pleasant memory, lasting friendship and amazing friends, seniors and juniors! I just hope that the time will slow down now, to where we just started again and i will love having them all around me again and laughing everyday. missess........

Never contented in life.
Let go wad shld be let go
Give up wad shld be given up
Enjoy life and dun let anyone control it
For, i live my life, not the others.
I shall forget, the memories that shldnt be rmb.
Forget the person that i shldnt rmb.

Hi peeps, so long never post le, acty i am not busy at night and in the morning, but i think i am just lazy to post anything larx. hahax. the more free i am the more lazy i will get..

Life is still the same, i never get wad i want still, never get wad i wan....sianx..... But nevermind. it has to carry, everything has to carry on. Now my life is call CO life, practice almost everyday from morning till night, or afternn till night, at least have practice for 3-4 hours everyday. but not bad, i like to practice. Next week from 14-16 dec will be having CO CAMP! hope i enjoy it, the last camp that i am in cchyco, as in officially!

Camp will be more vigourous, but i will survive, luckily all the work that i have end this week. hahax. if not i cant enjoy in camp when i thinking that i still got alot of forms to type. But maybe i will bringing netbook over to do anything lor. hahax. i dunno wad too. hahax. but seems cool. I wan to do more forms too, cuz it equals to more money. hahax

Just open a letter this morning and find that i have gotten the Eagles Award. hahax. got $200, i can save it to buy my laptop, so happy! thx mdm teo, ms woo and mr chang. hahax. was damn happy when i see the cover, i havent get it for like 4 years le. hahax. this is the 4th time i am getting it. i feel happy, cuz my hard work paid off. not the money business, is the things that i done make me feel happy!! :D

I shall stop here, ltr going for practice from 12-6.30pm, tmr more vigourous from morning i think 10am-10pm at night. hahax. cuz i got tgccco tmr, helping them to ban zou sai ma. so long never play, i hope that i dun ruin them playing it so well.!

Chalet with clique! 231109

hahax, peeps i am so busy with CO, running outside everyday, just have some time for myself to rest and sit down and use the comp properly, without pple talking to me and asking me about things. Just came back from NZPSCO camp, clique chalet and practice practice and still practice. hahax, since 18nov, i dun ve a day that i got nothing to do until now, but i am busy and happy at the same time, didnt think of alot of stuff nowadays, just wanna settle things and live happily. I have got alot of great seniors and juniors beside me, they are eager to learn and i am happy whenever i see them learn, they are the best, i hope everyone can do their very best, its getting near and i am getting scared and worried and nervous, but i hope everything will go well until that day have arrive, it will surely be possible if we all work hard tgt!

I got nothing more to say, just that i am very busy, i have a bunch of photos that can be uploaded hahax. all the photos that i have taken and not put up in the blog. hahax.

I am so stress, but i dunno how to explain why i am stress, everything around me really gone wrong, although i try to tell pple that everything can be solve de, but i think i cant even think of a way to solve it and i am telling pple that it can be solve, so contradicting!

I dunno what i can do and what i shld do at the moment, it is such an undescriable feeling that i have, eventhough my O levels are over, it just seems that there are still things that i haven settle, is not one thing, but alot of things. sianx...

I hope everything just go the right way for me, i hope that this week can pass faster with all the things that i wan to settle, i am so looking forward to 23rd nov, cuz after that i will be more free le, from now until 23rd nov, i have to go out almost everyday and spending money on things that i wanna do.

Now i feel that having money is important!!! Never have such a feeling before. I feel like having a break, spending a day with my closest group of friends hanging out doing nothing, maybe talking to each other chatting to each other, laughing at each other jokes like nobody business and just dun think about anything that i am thinking now. I want to have a good rest, a good slp most importantly, more than 12 hours of slp if i can do it!! hahax.

Just hope that everything goes right, and i spend my days happily, if not this year really my most happy years and my most saddest year in life le, although i know as i grow, i will face more challenges, but this is a challenge that i have to overcome for the time being. I will do it, i have faith in myself, so i will jiayou!

Money is so IMPORTANT to me now.
Who can bring back my laughter?
I need a breather, a break from everything.
Just one day of break, i will be satisfied.
Just One Day.

I blogging less eventhough my O levels are over.
I think i try to seperate to day by day.

Wednesday 11Nov2009
I end my last paper today, but i dun feel the absolute joy in me, the battle that i have fight for 3 months, the things that i have study for 4 years and the time i have been waiting for for 16 years. Everything has come to an end on that day. The battle has ended, i am said to be a free person, i shld go and enjoy myself, and i did. When back to CCHYCO straight for sectional and practice with them, celebrate brev's bdae for her and practice very hard to do my best in the concert. juz hope that everything when right.

i was so happy that day
back to drumming.
but i am juz now happy.
i lost something, my DESTINATION!

Thursday 12Nov2009
When back to practice gu shi with the Kc, Zj, Qm and Zy. I am so happy, firz time the gu shi group got full house! Then we took video on how we play and look at it, the firz time was a mess at me and Zy parts, but the second time has nothing wrong, we can play the score, but without any other dynamics and things. but i think not bad le, hahax. We can still improve though. Then after that we went for dinner and when to watch a movie tgt, My girlfriend is an agent.
Then ended up going home quite late, but enjoy myself to the fullest that day! hahax.

So happy, was so wonderful.
Going out with a gang of friends. laughing.
Forgetting all the stress that i have.
I should say i have AMAZING Seniors and Juniors.

Friday 13Nov2009
I wake up damn early that day, i think at 7am. hahax. dunno for wad stupid reasons. Then went to have lunch and went to CCHYCO! We wanna show zhao our gushi that we have practice tgt for 3 times! hahax. Sounds so little, but YAY!, we succeed, he let us play de song and he wanna hear us improve again next time he hears it. Was so damn happy and nevous, me and ziyue was trembling at the part when we both playing important things. hahax. But its over, then went to dinner, but i didnt eat larx, at the zi char place and after that sit down somewhere to chat again until we all went home.

Acty, i am not in a mood that day.
Nothing to say, to talk.
I choose to keep quiet sometimes, thinking.
Thinking of other stuff, which someone has juz suddenly brought it up and shock me half dead.

14Nov2009
I wake up at 6am in the morning, i am going to earn the first pay, my first job, which is data entry+ a little stock taking. It earns me $50, first time working, both enthu and sad and tired. I think working and keeping one busy is a good way to cure stressness. But when the work stops and nothing to do for a few minutes, its just flashback. After the work, i want to watch the World Drum Night at RP with Eileen. Then after watching meet Zj and his friends to have dinner cum supper at Mac. Not bad, but drink coffee after the concert, make me damn tired. I dun wan drink coffee outside le, so tired. I feel very bad too, since i cant practice gu shi with them that day, was so damn sad and wanted to call and us if i missed out anything important or how the gu shi has go that day, got improvement or not? hahax, how i hope i was there and practice. but i am not, i am so sorry, the gu shi group.

I feel bad after i didnt go and practice.
But money matters to me alot now, i hope they can understand.
I didnt enjoy myself that day, thinking of things.
But am happy that everything seems to be smooth that day.

15Nov2009
wake up damn early again, at 7am. Then went to grandma hse, i shld thx my auntie for helping me make my nails until so nice, hahax.. Then went to watch the beautiful sunday at esplandae, but too bad, it is like full hse until so damn full and we go late, so didnt have the chance to watch, then i went to esplandae library and find scores. Then after that went to shop for gradnight, its so hard, i dun like shopping at ALL! Then i didnt find anything that i like and can wear in the end, i think i shld try to find more time to go and shop.

Was so mad at someone today.
Its over, i should have the 'don't care attitude'
Then everything will just go fine.
Peijun just stop thinking can le.


I find that i am still stress and have alot of things in mind eventhough my exams are over, having slpless night, i wake up so damn early in the morning, but i dunno wad to do, i really hope that i can slp for 24 hours now and wake up the next day, finding that everything will be solve. But it will never happen, so i will juz carry on, solve the things that shld be solve, think positively and continue to show pple how hard that one can work and motivate the others if i can and help each other on the way and not do things and say things that hurt others. Helping is a way of showing ur love.

Today wake up super early, i dunno why i cant get to slp yesterday night and i wake up damn early tonight. sianx. I think is the bad dream that i have wake me up from my sleep and i dare not go back to sleep. 2 dreams in a row, one happen today and the other i think will happen soon if everything is successful.

I shall say about the dream that happen today, it sets me thinking on my bed for around 30 minutes before i wake up. I dreamt about me relaxing like exam are really over and i am too free, when shopping with my mum at northpoint, but acty i have a paper that day which start at 2pm. I look at my phone, it is 2.10pm and i am still shopping. I am not in my uniform and i must rush home and change and rush to school by 2.30pm, half an hour before the paper start. The scary part just happen now, when i am running in a big field, which is a never ending run, i saw my destination, my house was so near, i can see it from my view, but no matter how hard i run i cant reach it, i am like staying in the place and keep running, until i am very tired and exhausted, until i cant take it anymore, i tried to run faster, its impossible.

It just seems that i never reach my destination, a place that i want to go, i think i havent have my goal, on where i want to go after O level, what shld i do? So near yet so far. I have never experience something like that before, where i cant reach my destination and my goal. But luckily this does not happen to me today, cuz i have taken my F&N paper. HAHAHAX

I think i ought to set something that i wanna do after my O level. It just seems so hopeless to me, Where i want to go? What i want to do? What can i do? I bombard myself with alot of question, i shall find the answer very soon, to the question that i ask myself. jiayou to me.

Nowadays i am more free.
Feel so hopeless in life.
I find that i lost my destination.
Once i end my O level.
I think i will make myself as BUSY as POSSIBLE!.

Super tired today, haven been having such a tired day after SYF until now.
Practice make me damn happy! and tired.
I just slept for 4 hours yesterday and here i am still blogging. hahax
I think i am used to blogging what i wanna say here.

Today wake up at 6+am, cuz going into cchy in the bright morning.
Then meet ziyue at CCHY, we acty reach around the same time.
I think i will be late if my dad didnt drive me there. sounds ridiculous.
Cuz i live too near to the school. hahahax
When to school and found that we can only practice in 2H(no aircon). hahax
But nvm, then me and ziyue practice until 8.30am like that and break until 8.45am.
But after that i still in CO room slack a while. until around 8.55am. hahahax

Then tried calling qm and kc see if they reach already.
But yah, kc cant make it and qm reach at around 9.05am? hahax.
Then we started with 3 persons practising.
Then after that was waiting for zj, he very very very late!
Nvm, forget it. yah, then after that we practice.
Acty, in my opinion, i think we make improvement, me and ziyue can cooperate well!
Then yah, we can play the piece until like not bad leh! from my opinion.!
I hope that we will be better and can show zhao asap, so that we can play!
So jiayou to us!

Then after that we went to ishi mura for lunch.
Then i meet huiqi and they go home, went out to study with huiqi and zk.
Then after that went home to bath and get some nap, but i slp for 15 mins, then my mum wake me up! hahax.
Then after that met eileen and went to watch Bro concert, his last concert.
He make my day so happy, he make me laugh like mad.
I very long never go watch band concert le.
He look so Pro on stage, with actions and a little bit of movement that i dun see in others.
I am happy that i get to see his last concert mann. i didnt missed it.
I wanted to take a photo with him, but he doesnt wan to meet me, so nvm.

But he make my day happy, i think one thing about band concert is they let the audience join in the fun when they are playing the songs, which make pple get attracted to them. But acty their percussion pple not bad, i hear le very shuang. hahax

We did a good job!
I never regret waking up early.
Making myself tired.
I enjoy the time we are practising.
The best time that i have for the day.
We can do it! Jiayou!

I still missed the spirit that CCHYCO have during our SYF, when laoda was telling me on wednesday, that he was really scared when we are drumming during SYF, he scared that something goes wrong, he say our SBYG was really good and impressive that day. But NOW, all gone, SBYG was never like before, shouting has gone, the mood when everyone was shouting so so SO loudly and the enthusiasm that struck me to drum louder has gone. Now the shouting goes soft that i think i wun dare to drum loud too.

We get GWH? But wad does GWH means? The highest award? We are one of the best? NO! In fact, i think we are never worth getting a GWH without all the hardwork that we have put in and all the help from alumni and instructor. They put their hardwork in it to teach us, but what have we done, we only perform our best for SYF, but NOW? Gone! We are like a few weeks to the concert, but i think not everyone is putting effort like SYF. When everyone was practicing so hard, just perfecting a song.

This is a different thing, a concert need cooperation from EVERYONE! Its not 2 songs we are playing now, there are no 6 months for us to practice 2 songs, but we have to complete the whole concert program and practicing in 44 days? I think is possible, but how can we make it possible? We need the help of the whole orchestra to cooperate.

I think i hope people to remember, winning is not everything, nothing comes without hardwork and practice. Musicians play for passion, we play music is not for the sake of playing it, but because we love it, the passion in us. Always remember, 台上一分钟，台下十年功。This is something that i see in people playing music, people may be good, but did u see how they practice?

Think if u can be as good as them and not impress by them. If u can do that and perform as well as them, u have accomplish something that others cant accomplish, so why not do things that others cant accoomplish but u can? Actually, everyone have the potential to accomplish things, but it just depends on how hard the person want to work hard in.

A good performer doesnt care how long he can show off to people on stage, but they care about how good their performance when they are on stage, how to impress the audience. A good performer can impress the audience even its only 10 seconds. It can be shown, the hard work u put in even u are just performing 10 seconds on stage compare to a person who have less practice and perform 1 minute. So jiayous peeps. People can do it, so can we.

This post is for CCHYCO peeps. If u got anything that you think that i say wrong, feel free to msn me or say your own view here! hahax. Lets work hard together! ;D

Hahax. Here i come blogging again, i think i will be blogging almost everyday if nothing stop me from using computer everyday, so sianx, now like very free, although i still got one more subject to work hard for, which is F&N! I really hope i can done well, but it seems that i am not putting effort in studying it now too. But now here i am blogging and talking crap.

Nvm larx, i will start tmr, i will REALLY start, cuz i think i really wasted one precious day that i have. Sianx.... I feel that i have alot of things that i want to do and accomplish after my O levels too, but i think all my things are so small, it can be done, but it takes time and maybe trust and help from pple around me, i think i will be real broke soon, with all the chalets, practice and meals that i need to pay for everytime i travel from place to place.

I really hope to earn some income myself so that i can help to earn money and no need to take from my mum. At least i am spending money that i earn and i wouldnt feel guility. I also hope that everything goes well for me after my O, i really feel like doing things out of the box, doing things that i have never done and try something new, maybe a new skills or wad. hmm....

I think i will be really free after CCHYCO concert too, if i really go to a poly, i also have to wait for the time that i get my results and wait or go to work maybe for another 3months before the school start. Thinking of it, really make me damn sian, working is for me to earn money. I think i will madly go drumming within that period of time, whenever i can i will go drumming and practice my zr. As long as things occupy me can le.

Ngai han was talking to me about the concert when we are asking if aud, viny and sha gg to watch anot, then she was saying something that i am thinking too. After the concert, we will not be people from CCHY again. We are the ex-student or alumni. And after the concert our relationship with the school and the CCHYCO will be like another status. Which is so true, i think i will cry that day, not tears of joy, not tears of sadness but tears of memories. That will be a FULL STOP in my secondary life le.

Memories that can never be forgotten, the best year in my life, with unforgettable memory and an accomplishment that i have, i have never been so into anything in my life before, never have cried so many times because things that people have done which touch me and make me sad too. I have not been so happy with my life before, i always thought life was so boring, just studying,making friends, playing, and do all craps stuff sometimes.

Suddenly i am starting to miss schooling, thinking that i got so much free time for me to do things, so i started missing it. Nothing to look forward to after O level, the things i looking forward to is to practice percussion and play it well, but other then that i really have no goals. sianx...

enough crap, end here.

I like the feeling mann! Relax feeling, like nothing to worry alot when i use my comp too. No one will care me, no one will scold me, cuz i have around 4 more days to my next paper and it is also my second last paper. F&N! Taken so so SO many paper from last week till now, i think i total of 10 papers already, now still got 2 more left, can feel the accomplishment in me.

Since today is Wednesday and my paper end quite early, of course i will go to a place! hahax. CO room, percussion having their sectional sia! so NICE! SO long never touch the instrument le, feel so rusty when i took the sticks up, was playing long teng on dagu with them. But until now i still dun understand the order of the song, becuz laoda has make some changes, So most of the time i was copying what they play.

Then after that tried the PG, when i look at the PG, i am thinking if i still can move like last time. But i think not bad larx, cuz laoda was quite impressed by me when i play PG, cuz i so long never really go and touch the instrument le, i think some practice on my house de sofa really help to improve myself and prevent me from rusting.

Then after that laoda left le, hahax. He keep calling me to work hard on my paper first, i will do it too! Then after laoda left, me, ziyue and jiaying was fixing the paigu together, i think we took quite long, cuz cant find the right size screw and the PG the side a little too small, so have to force open the metal and put the nut inside. Thx jiaying and ziyue for their help. Thx jiaee for her crap and singing too, make me laugh and irritates my ear to the core!!!

Then after fixing the PG, me and ziyue started to practice gu shi together, but sadly, we dun ve alot of time left to practice since they are going to close the CO room. sianx.. Me and ziyue only manage to run through the first part and i think i clear some of her doubts le. hahax. So we will jiayou together. hahahahahahahax. Then she was calling me to go and practice at 7am in the morning on sat, then i think also not bad, the earlier we practice, the more time we have, so i sought of agree, i dun care my sleep, but i care the practice now. hahax. okay larx, enough crapping, shall end here. bye!

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was so touched by what ziyue say in her blog, i will work hard with her no matter what.
I love Percussion too, and it will be my Best Friend Forever like everyone in CCHYCO Percussion! Jiayou to Ziyue!

Nothing goes right for me since last Friday, NOTHING!
Why things should happen when i am fighting a battle that will determine my future?
I dun wan all this unhappy things to happen, i want happy things.
Things that i can look forward to!!!

People keep stressing me this few days, i got headache almost everyday, thinking of my papers and thinking of the problems i have, be it with my friends or family.

I cant slp well everyday, i sleep around 3-5 hours everyday now, i dunno how long i can last from now till my O levels end. Nothing just goes the right way for me, but i will survive, i will stay strong and i will fight this battle myself.


I regretted things that i have done
Words that i have said
But its too late to regret
I will just hang on myself
Concentrate on my battle
Settle everything after that
Just hope that everything will turn out fine
Because i dun wan any unhappy things to happen

Hahax, today take the first paper of the O level, and it is the most important paper for O level sia! hahax. I think still not bad, i think i can make it, lol. hope that nothing goes wrong. For the next 4 days i will be taking Emaths paper 1, Emaths paper 2, Amaths paper 1 and Amaths paper 2. hahax. All the papers are in the afternn at 2.30pm. hahax. lol. i shall keep my post short and sweet, LOL. i still got 9 more days to tolerate, then i can be a little free. hahax. jiayous!

What has happen, one day before my English paper start and what someone has tell me make me think the whole day. Its never like before, we are like a rope that snap, we are not hanging on to each other, we dun tie the knot when we are gg to fall. We dont share a common interest anymore. Not like before, what has happen? but i cant settle it now, i really feel like settling it. I only hope that the person we find can help us solve the problem now. Solve it well and return me what i have lost, the bond between us. Let it be strong again, 10 is better than 1. So i want 10, i dun want 1! hahax.

I feel like having a shoulder to lie on, i am too stress up with too much things that happen around, friendship, exams and alot of stuff which i cant say here. I am so damn stress up, nthing is going right when i want it to be and when things are going wrong, it may lead me to the wrong way too. But i shld stay on path, which i know. Too many things to settle, my mind is filled with information and things that i cant settle myself. I feel very stress up as the days get nearer, but there is one thing that can make me a happy person and live well and solve all my problems.

Things occupy me this year, the year that i have been most stress and confused on what i am doing, things occur, without me knowing, without me getting involved, but i am affected, greatly affected. I really hope that my O levels can pass as soon as possible, i will study hard and solve all the problems i currently have, i will have the strength within me, the courage that is in me, i want to bring back what i have lost and bring things back to normal in my life. Let me do it, i know I CAN!

I need cooperation from people, i know i can do it, but sometimes it may be too late. Nothing is impossible in life, lets solve it tgt, as a team that beat with one hearts and play with one sound. We can go back to before, a few months ago, but all we need is understanding and cooperation. Sorry, if i sound like crapping, and mixing around what i want to say. I think people that is involved will really understand what i mean.


disheartened to see what has happen
but what can i do?
nothing is more important than u all.
the one that is in my life
the best friends that i have.
is still u all
no matter what age we are in
i dun care, i juz wan u all back as ONE!
The One and Only other place doesnt have.
i really need support, a support that can help me.

PICTURES!!
These are the pictures we took on 17 October 2009.
KC's belated bdae celebration! so fun.
This are only some of the pictures, there are more!!!

argh!! O level coming, i still have 10 more days to complete all my subject.
i still got like eng, emaths, amaths, chem, phy, geog, SS and F&N!
acty, its oly 8 more subjects, i hope i take pure for everything sometimes.
cuz humans have 2 subjects, science also have 2. hahax. but its impossible!

sometimes i damn feel like giving up on humans!!
sianx, since i wanna go food science and technology in SP.
So humans dunnit to count in L1R4.
As in the day pass i am getting more happier and stress and pressure.
like having alot of mixed feelings, so undescribable.
i think sometimes i dun think so much about any friends who is around me better.
will make me better. so that i dun think so much.

imagaining that after 27 days of like mugging and looking at books and EXAMS!
i will be going to be free for like half a year, thinking of it make me damn happy!!
i also hope that O level pass as fast as possible.
but the results come in as slow~~~ as possible.
holidays pass as slow~~~ as possible too.
then i got more time to enjoy.

i really hope that i can get my 14 points. so that i can go to the course i want.
so yah, i shldnt blog le, hahax. shld go and study and jiayou for my O level!!!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAX!!!! BYE!!!

hahax. 4 more official sch days and i am out of CCHY, hahax.
4 years seem SO fast, 4 years in CCHY, left 4 days now!
i will really miss my friends!! we must keep in contact!
hahax, imagining i have 20 days left to O levels!
37 days to go to become a super free person!
OKay, not SUPER free, just not studying.
If i going poly, i will have a like 5mths++ break!
I think after that i wouldnt have mood to study! hahax.
But have break better than dun ve! i should study now!!
After this 4 days of sch days, i will be having 2 weeks study break!
then O level start! acty after 4 Nov, i am quite free le!
cuz my next paper is on 9 Nov, which is F&N, still got 5 days to study!!
But must do my best! since i have so many days to study!
so muz at least do well in F&N!!!

hahax. i hope that i can get 12 points for L1B4! hahax.
sounds difficult when i am blogging NOW!
hahax. But yah, i dun wanna score 15 and above
since i want to go Food Science and Technology in SP!
Hope that i can get in!! hahax.. bye

hahax, blogging AGAIN!
Yah, have some events in TGCC.
Then we perform again, hahax.
Was quite sian, the stage very small! hahax.
I think my last time gg to TGCCO.
But i think i will be back on 14 nov! hahax.

After my O, i will be real busy! Busy! BUSY!!!
hahax, nvm lar. i like busy life!
But thinking that my EVERY sat and sun will be gone.
Hahax, but happy larx.
Means that sat and sun got frens to pei me.! hahax.

i think i shall end here. bye

I am back to blogging.
I think as the days past and O level getting nearer.
I get SLACKER!
But now better bah, having mock exam. SO i will more or less study.
But i think the mock exam is still not of any use!
I just have to bear 11 more days of mock exam, then i can study on my own.
Cuz the mock exam make me too tired to study when i get home.
Anw, i did a very funny thing and an accomplishment.
I went to CO room and say HI to laoda and leave.
Then after my lesson, i went back again and say BYE to laoda.
hahax. i acty manage to get in and go out, in less than a minute.
AN ACCOMPLISHMENT! Although i wanna stay and touch the instru.
Nvm, i just have to bear with it for another 7 weeks!
Really 7 Weeks, 49 days frm now.
It will be the last day of my O level! hahax.
SO, Peijun JIAYOU!
Thats all i have to say, i think my blog dead le.
No one come and read le. D:
But nvm, i still blog to update the things i do.

finally. my prelim 2 has ended.
i think i still have 1 mth plus to work hard!
ah, not enough time!
this year seems to pass super FAST!
firz SYF, practice and practice.
then chi paper, june holiday.
prelim 1, then now prelim 2!
its like so fast, i am leaving the sch.
i think i will miss sec sch life soon.
but life muz still carry on. hahax.
ard 2 more months ltr, i can REST too.
like FINALLY! hahax.
so yah, nthin to tok about le.
bye.

Today is a very happy day for me, i got back my Chinese 'O' Level results. Remember the days that i have start revising my Chinese, this is the subject that i hope to get the best result in, and i got it. I got A1 for my chinese, but this is just one subject out of my 7 subjects that i took.

These are the dates that i took my Chinese O level:
1st June 2009- Chinese language paper 1 and paper 2
16th July 2009-Chinese Oral
22nd July 2009-Chinese listening comprehension

Like what my teacher say, this is just a small hurdle in life, we still have many major and big hurdle to cross and the upcoming one is the O Level. But it really is a small hurdle in our life, we do not know what will happen next time, so i think that those of my friend who did not did well should not spent their time crying and be upset about it, but Jiayous and work hard for the upcoming O level that will be taking place in 2 months time.

I think there is more important things in life coming up for people, i think as we grow, we may think that crying for such minor things are very stupid and will think that it is no worth it. I think so too, but i got A1, of cause i didn't cry for it, i have been thinking positively about it, but the time when my results is being released i am really nervous and scared that i did not get the results i want and dissapoint my mother and teachers.

I am glad that i did not need to retake it again too. If i am going to a polytechnic, i really don't need to care about chinese anymore NOW! Now, as i know my chinese results, i should continue to work hard for my other 6 subjects and do well! jiayous PEI JUN!!!

i am sick again. hahax
lol, coughing non stop frm i dunno wad day until now.
when to see doctor in the afternn and get 1 day MC.
lucky oly one day!!
then now i want to slp le.
firz time slp so early. hahax. lol
cuz of the medicine, make me so so so sleepy!

juz did some quiz frm facebook which cant be publish.
some quote quiz about me.

Which Quote Is The Quote For You?
my results: Oneday someone will walk into your life, and make you realize why it never worked with anyone else.
Who knows, maybe their already in your life, you just can't open your eyes and give them the time of day to realize it because your too stuck on mrs./mr. popularity. Maybe you should just wait for them to come to you. Just take the hint when they give it to you.

What's your cute quote?
my results: I'm tired of playing pretend. Pretending is for schoolchildren. Maybe i just wanna fall in love for real this time.
Your soo tired of all these assholes, it's time for something different. You hate throwing the word "love" around and you want it for real this time.

these are the 2 results i got. hahax.. totally describe me now. hahax. i shld stop pretending. hahax.. and carry on with life.!

if there is a will, there is a WAY!
pretending is not a way to solve things.
neither is a way to forget things.
so i shld juz stop.hahax...

this post is purely to my jie jie who has change my life.
i think by right i know her for like 5 years, since the year i join CO.
but i get to know her better and better last year.
when we went to tgccco together almost every week
she is older then me, like my elder sister.
she guide me along in alot of things.
during the period when i am feeling really happy.
i neglected her and found myself with a group of frens. the percusio.
bcuz of the SYF period i have bah.
then after SYF, we got back again, CLOSER..
we get closer and closer, i have told her alot of things about me and myself.
maybe she is the ONE and oly who know so much about me.
i told her almost all my secrets and a very big secret which has been bothering me.
for MONTHS!
she is the one who was at my side when i am feeling real low and try to ask me.
but i didnt say anything, i am so sorry.
everything happen this year.!
my most happiest year in my life
my most emo-ing year in my life
my most saddest year in my life
my most crying year in my life
the year that i have most of my emotion.
because of something that i cant reveal.
but she was always there for me.
consoling me when i am down.
we also have our up and down.
i have mood swings too. but i think still acceptable.
i have always been in a daze nowadays, not caring wad happen ard me.
but this year esp. i have been really emotional and need a breather.
i think i fall ill nowadays bcuz of that bah.
i didnt overwork myself, but i overthink myself.
i shld stop thinking now.
i muz listen to my jie jie.
some things are not WORTH thinking.
really not WORTH.
i shant be affected by wad doesnt happen to me and stop THINKING!
i think i get along well with pple older then me too.
better to tok to, better to communicate.
i wish that my jie jie find a job that suit her and jiayous in finding a BF!!! HAHAHAHAHAX!!!
a guy that love her, and she love the guy too.
i wish that our friendship will last FOREVER...
and no one can affect our friendship.
esp the person... I DUN CARE HIM LE.

today kinda have a fun and enjoyable day bah.
hahax.. not thinking of anything that i shldnt be thinking.
today dun ve RC de CO. then went out with my mum dad and bro to pray.
then went there and saw jolene, so long nv see her, she is still so shy.
then after that went shopping at Sheng shiong. hahax.
nthin to shop larx, juz wanna walk ard, since we all go out tgt today!
but the sheng shiong very big, got 3 floors. with foodcourt too.
then shop finish le went to eat some dessert with my bro and mum.
eat bo bo cha cha and red ruby. i eat very FAST!
cuz my bro will snatch frm me. hahax.. cuz i eat dessert super SLOW de.
but i cant be as fast as my bro!!
then after that bought a plate of char kway teow and eat!
hahax, i am suppose to be the one who is hungry!
but my bro eat more than me when he say i am hungry!!!
then after that went to shop again and find my dad then we go to ah pei yi yi hse.
we go and fetch qi rui to ah mah hse. hahax..
qi rui firz time sitting lorry! hahax.
shld be quite interesting to him, and noisy!!!
hahax... then i sat behind the lorry with bro until i dun wanna get down.
very shuang sitting behind. in a good position!
but have to get down since my dad gg somewhere and i reach ah mah hse le.
then after that went to ah mah hse.
everyone see me like long lost fren like that.
hahax, i nv go down for 3 weeks le.!
then after that play with qi rui and tok with family.
hahax, today full house. all 20 of us are there!!
we watch fireworks frm ah mah hse, since it was 25th storey high! hahax..
then now, i am at home slacking again!!! hahax..
okay, finish le. bye.

i muz thank eileen too, for helping me edit my testimonial! it look so perfect now. hahax..

more things shld occupy my mind now
then i wun be thinking as much. hahax
being happy everyday is me.
being not happy everyday is not me.
but i dun wanna be happy everyday.
pple may think i am mad!
but i will try to be happy.

hahax.. today was a sianx day..
but at least there is sumthing to occupy my mind!
today in the afternn my mum take me to go make specs.
at the shop infront of sheng shiong.
the uncle there not bad larx.
hahax.. i bought i more not nerdy specs.
which is brown and black in colour.
its half frame de and i think i quite suit it larx.
the brand call levelnine and it is make by koo tian le i think.
but it cost me like 280 altgt! super ex.
but my mum say i look more nice and trendy in that.
better then this nerdy specs.
hahax, the person in the shop said that too.

was somehow very very bored.
then i went to TGCCCO today.
as i said i will go back like at least once a month bah
to relax myself and to keep up on wad is happening.
i met eileen at katib mrt and went down with her.
she go eat pie kia. hahax..
bought a pair of earring with her too, same de.
after that went to CO.
lee lao shi juz told me that we will have performance on 26 sept.
he call me to perform, he say i can juz go on that day and perform.
but i dunno i shld go anot, cuz it is 1 mth away frm my O level.
then he say going to have a small concert in CC on 19th december.
hahax, then cchyco got concert on 17th december.
i scared i cant manage both side the concert well.
so i am considered OCCUPIED with CO! after my O level.
hahax, but i will find time to work larx.
i wanna earn money le.
to satisfy myself. hahax...
thats all i have to say for today.


i shld try to forget things NOW.
smiling and laughing can throw things aside?
if it can, i will laugh and smile everyday.
better then cry and sad everyday.

hi pple,
blog about wad has happen in school these few days again.
school was the same, bored!!!
i have been going CO everyday and i am tired.
but i still did my hmwk everyday and study!
hahax.. but little larx, dun really have the motivation to study.

tues was a okay day, was not tired and was playing.
wed have sectional, i went to see, study and practice abit for todays performance.
thur have rehersal with CO in the MPH, i think mdm teo very understanding..
i have been asking her really can perform ar, cuz if cant perform i nvm de,
juz let them perform themselves. since i am not impt.
then she say, my last national day in cchy le.. so say okay de larx.
she say she will be my back up if i go and play.

finally TODAY!
have a great performance with them.
feel so contented.
ms woo say the same thing to me when we walking to MPH.
she call me to juz go and play.
she will back me up at the back if anything happen.
but ya, nthin happen. hahax.. i play SBYG!
i am happy, feel like crying when i play it mann.
so long, it has been so long.
the actions! the shouting!
the music, although we have played it tgt alot of times.
but is not the amount of times that we play it make me happy.
but juz by hearing the song make me damn happy le!!
the actions that percussion has is the most memorable de!
nthin can compare to the action.
we took time and sweat to learn the action and we still rmb!
hahax. i wun forget it de! the thing that will stay with me until i am old.!
the unforgotten secondary 4 life i had!

hahax, sophia, sally and viny say i was very shuai! when i play the drum!
hahax.. doesnt look like me, hahax..
i am shuai and cool. hahx. lol. percussion de best!!
okay. enough of today le.
i am tired and i think i am damn work up frm monday until now.
have not been having good slp since mon until now!
now i have alot of things to do le.
i muz jiayous and dun think so much abt other thing!



i dont know wad happen.
i juz cant help thinking!
wad has happen to me?
i shld stop thinking!
and juz study and study and STUDY!
until my O level finish.
then i will think again!
i miss that someone..