Today wake up super early, i dunno why i cant get to slp yesterday night and i wake up damn early tonight. sianx. I think is the bad dream that i have wake me up from my sleep and i dare not go back to sleep. 2 dreams in a row, one happen today and the other i think will happen soon if everything is successful.

I shall say about the dream that happen today, it sets me thinking on my bed for around 30 minutes before i wake up. I dreamt about me relaxing like exam are really over and i am too free, when shopping with my mum at northpoint, but acty i have a paper that day which start at 2pm. I look at my phone, it is 2.10pm and i am still shopping. I am not in my uniform and i must rush home and change and rush to school by 2.30pm, half an hour before the paper start. The scary part just happen now, when i am running in a big field, which is a never ending run, i saw my destination, my house was so near, i can see it from my view, but no matter how hard i run i cant reach it, i am like staying in the place and keep running, until i am very tired and exhausted, until i cant take it anymore, i tried to run faster, its impossible.

It just seems that i never reach my destination, a place that i want to go, i think i havent have my goal, on where i want to go after O level, what shld i do? So near yet so far. I have never experience something like that before, where i cant reach my destination and my goal. But luckily this does not happen to me today, cuz i have taken my F&N paper. HAHAHAX

I think i ought to set something that i wanna do after my O level. It just seems so hopeless to me, Where i want to go? What i want to do? What can i do? I bombard myself with alot of question, i shall find the answer very soon, to the question that i ask myself. jiayou to me.

Nowadays i am more free.
Feel so hopeless in life.
I find that i lost my destination.
Once i end my O level.
I think i will make myself as BUSY as POSSIBLE!.