I blogging less eventhough my O levels are over.
I think i try to seperate to day by day.

Wednesday 11Nov2009
I end my last paper today, but i dun feel the absolute joy in me, the battle that i have fight for 3 months, the things that i have study for 4 years and the time i have been waiting for for 16 years. Everything has come to an end on that day. The battle has ended, i am said to be a free person, i shld go and enjoy myself, and i did. When back to CCHYCO straight for sectional and practice with them, celebrate brev's bdae for her and practice very hard to do my best in the concert. juz hope that everything when right.

i was so happy that day
back to drumming.
but i am juz now happy.
i lost something, my DESTINATION!

Thursday 12Nov2009
When back to practice gu shi with the Kc, Zj, Qm and Zy. I am so happy, firz time the gu shi group got full house! Then we took video on how we play and look at it, the firz time was a mess at me and Zy parts, but the second time has nothing wrong, we can play the score, but without any other dynamics and things. but i think not bad le, hahax. We can still improve though. Then after that we went for dinner and when to watch a movie tgt, My girlfriend is an agent.
Then ended up going home quite late, but enjoy myself to the fullest that day! hahax.

So happy, was so wonderful.
Going out with a gang of friends. laughing.
Forgetting all the stress that i have.
I should say i have AMAZING Seniors and Juniors.

Friday 13Nov2009
I wake up damn early that day, i think at 7am. hahax. dunno for wad stupid reasons. Then went to have lunch and went to CCHYCO! We wanna show zhao our gushi that we have practice tgt for 3 times! hahax. Sounds so little, but YAY!, we succeed, he let us play de song and he wanna hear us improve again next time he hears it. Was so damn happy and nevous, me and ziyue was trembling at the part when we both playing important things. hahax. But its over, then went to dinner, but i didnt eat larx, at the zi char place and after that sit down somewhere to chat again until we all went home.

Acty, i am not in a mood that day.
Nothing to say, to talk.
I choose to keep quiet sometimes, thinking.
Thinking of other stuff, which someone has juz suddenly brought it up and shock me half dead.

14Nov2009
I wake up at 6am in the morning, i am going to earn the first pay, my first job, which is data entry+ a little stock taking. It earns me $50, first time working, both enthu and sad and tired. I think working and keeping one busy is a good way to cure stressness. But when the work stops and nothing to do for a few minutes, its just flashback. After the work, i want to watch the World Drum Night at RP with Eileen. Then after watching meet Zj and his friends to have dinner cum supper at Mac. Not bad, but drink coffee after the concert, make me damn tired. I dun wan drink coffee outside le, so tired. I feel very bad too, since i cant practice gu shi with them that day, was so damn sad and wanted to call and us if i missed out anything important or how the gu shi has go that day, got improvement or not? hahax, how i hope i was there and practice. but i am not, i am so sorry, the gu shi group.

I feel bad after i didnt go and practice.
But money matters to me alot now, i hope they can understand.
I didnt enjoy myself that day, thinking of things.
But am happy that everything seems to be smooth that day.

15Nov2009
wake up damn early again, at 7am. Then went to grandma hse, i shld thx my auntie for helping me make my nails until so nice, hahax.. Then went to watch the beautiful sunday at esplandae, but too bad, it is like full hse until so damn full and we go late, so didnt have the chance to watch, then i went to esplandae library and find scores. Then after that went to shop for gradnight, its so hard, i dun like shopping at ALL! Then i didnt find anything that i like and can wear in the end, i think i shld try to find more time to go and shop.

Was so mad at someone today.
Its over, i should have the 'don't care attitude'
Then everything will just go fine.
Peijun just stop thinking can le.


I find that i am still stress and have alot of things in mind eventhough my exams are over, having slpless night, i wake up so damn early in the morning, but i dunno wad to do, i really hope that i can slp for 24 hours now and wake up the next day, finding that everything will be solve. But it will never happen, so i will juz carry on, solve the things that shld be solve, think positively and continue to show pple how hard that one can work and motivate the others if i can and help each other on the way and not do things and say things that hurt others. Helping is a way of showing ur love.